Golden Lily

(18)

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Yn PoV

After a many days of hanging out with Haru he became busy today amd tell me that we cant hang out together so I decide to visit our little camp or house in the mountain... as I walk toward the camp I saw someone sitting beside the golden lily... i didnt have to think who is that because i can clearly tell that is my boyfriend staring at the sky, we looks like he is lost in his own world

I sit carefully and quitely near him, our usuall position im in the left side he is in the right then the lily between us... "whats on your mind? you look so tired and about to give up in the same time Jiro" i smoothly ask him, not to surprise him... he slowly turn his head and attention to me, i can see his almost lifeless eye

I know im suppose to be angry to him, but the moment i see his broken expression my anger melt instantly and my body move on its own to hug Jiro tightly but not to tight to let him breath... i can feel his shaking hands that rutern the hug... to my surprise he suddenly cry but silently i know it because my shirt is getting wet because of his tears

"Im sorry, i know i promise you that ill keep your brother safe and bring him back to you but i failed... i failed My Lily im sorry"  he rant and cry harder than earlier    "Jiro i only have one question please answer it with only truth" he didnt replay or said anything but i know hes waiting for me to continue   "what happen? Why did it end up like that? Did someone did that to brother or he is the one who did that to himself? Please Jiro im dying to know the truth"   i can feel cheeks getting wet too... my brain is having a flashback in the moment i saw my brothers lifeless body

"I-.....  At first their just fighting... a normal fight not until Baji hit Kisaki with the metal bar"  ohh so Nii-san is the one who did that injury to Tetta    "Im lost in my own world and just saw someone push Baji which made him almost fly to Kazutora.. Baji stand up and about to hit Kisaki again he suddenly fell in his knees and throw up a blood, it sinks in to us that the moment your brother fly to Kazutora is also the time he stabbed Baji silently" he countinue i can feel my anger rising up to my head its Kazutora again i think its his job to kill my brothers

"But Baji stand up again but that time he tell us that Kazutora is not the one who will kill him after he said that the stabbed himself, he just tell us few words and focus talking to Takemichi and Chifuyu which is the nearest to him... im sorry thats all i know because when your brother take his lasr breath i freak out and got lost in my world thingking about you and your emotions" i cry out loud this time he is the one whos helding me tight as i lost my strength and lost my balance but Jiro catch me before i fall in the ground

Jiro didnt say anything after he share what happen, i just cry my heart out until i got tired im thing what if brother didnt stab him self? What if he is still with me...? What if he is still alive?

Jiro didnt let me go, he hug me even though he is not comfortable... he just hold me until i stop crying... we he feel that i calm down he let me go a little then he look directly and slowly wipe my tears in my face, but when my tears keep falling he sign and kiss my eyes

"Dont get me wrong love, im not blaming you or something you know that i cant stay angry at you, i love you no matter what" i silently whisper to Jiro he let our forhead touch each other

"But do i deserve to be loved by someone like you?" He whisper back .. when i hear him say that i hug him again tightl, we just want to comfort each other and stay together as we can

"You deserve everything my love, you deserve the whole world,you deserve me because im your world" i teasingly said and we both laugh at my statement our fourhead still in together   "we should rest already its already dark in here... want me to give you a ride?"  He ask me as he hold my hand didnt wait for my answer he pull me toward his motor

We stop near our house we didnt enter the village where i am because its already dark and his motor is really loud ... we say goodbye to each other and he even peck to my lips before leaving

Iam walking toward our house when i pass in the park or rather playground i saw Takemichi in the swing alone in the middle of the night so i decide to approch him.. as i sit in the other swing that next to Michi he took at me and im shoock because he suddenly kneel infront of me and say sorry for not saving my brother, at first im confuse its nobody mission to save my brother because nobody know what will happen then the timeleap time enter my mind

I stand up and offer my hand to Michi telling him to stand up and when he did i look at him 'he look so tired like Jiro earlier' i talk to myself

I process the timeleap thing to my mind so what if he already know what will happen and he want to change it but didnt stop it anyway, then something left my lips that made Michi look at me with a surprise expression in his face 

" hey Takemichi do you know that life is a game you have two options. Either you play along or lose this game, its your choice my dear dont push yourself too much" i smile and start to walk away again

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"When i looked into your eyes
  I guess i didnt recognize
  Who we are and all that we can be
  Sometimes its hard to find yourself
  But its worth it in the end
  Cause in your heart is where it all begins"