Golden Lily

(16)

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Yn PoV

When my mom call me earlier i immediately run toward where they are... i watch them through the window, i can see them talking maybe about what should they do to Keisuke-nii dead body... When they open the door i walk inside, my mom amd others move out of my way.. i kneel infront of my brother then i hold his cold and hard hand

I put it in my cheeks make it look like his carring my face.. i cry quitely as i srtare at him.. i reach my other hand to his face and slowly wipe the dried blood in his lips "nii-chan, wake up your birthday is near i want you to celebrate it with me but how can i do that now? What happen to you? Why did it end up like this?" I cry again but this time i loudly do it

I feel our mom slowly care my shoulder then she also kneel down and hug me from behind.. she put my head in her neck but still looking to my brother, i can hear our mom trying to calm me down...

When they say, they will get my brother ready for his funeral, mok tell me to take a fresh wind amd try to calm myself, as i walk outside i immediately call Jiro it took for like 5 seconds before someone answer it

"Jiro... how are you? Are you hurt? The other member.. are they fine?" My voice break and i know that Jiro can hear me crying "im fine, just some scratch in my head slightly bleeding and the others are fine" he also sound like he cry too... "why?.... why did that happen? What happen? Why it needed to be my brother?" I cry to my phone now

"Im sorry, i cant save your brother to that tragedy.. im sorry love, im sorry" i silently cry but i can hear him too "who did that to him?" My mind only want a revenge... revenge and revenge

"Baji did that to him self... he stab him self to save someone" i cry louder this time i cant handle it why did he do it to his self... did he even think of me when he did that.. why? Whos that someone he save.. is that person more important than me?

I was about to ask Jiro about that but i hear Ryuu "Hey Yn, Mikey need to rest he have a big wound in his head im sorry, where are you ill be the one to bw with you if you want" maybe Mikey fall asleep will talking to me because i fell silent

"No thank you im fine just need sometime alone... ill be fine" i quitely said.. Ryuu didnt say anything maybe he hesitate to thing what should he do "dont worry ill be fine Ryuu just plese stay with Mikey for now"

I end the call and start to walk toward the park i sit in the bench infront of the flower again... i just stare at it for a while and i didnt even notice that someone sit beside me... "Hey why are you crying?" I slowly look at the voice i saw Kisaki in Toman uniform with slight blood in his head

"What happen? To your head did someone hit you with a metal?" I face his side then chech his head... i took my small towel, and carefully wipe his blood in his head

"You? What happen to you? Why are you crying? Because of what happen to the ex toman member?" He ask me look concern... i dont know why but when he opem his arm i dive into it and cry in his shoulder... maybe were not that close but were open to each other

"Not just because of that ex toman member, hes also my brother who treat me like a princess sinse i open my eyes in this world" i slowly talk still hugging, craving for someones affection

Kisaki PoV

Her brother? Baji Keisuke? What the hell i didnt hear it to anyone, yeah i know she have a brother but i didnt know that its Baji

"Baji? He is youre brother? I didnt hear it to anyone" i said sound like confuse... its my chance to do something right?

"Yeah and Jiro tell me that brother kill himself because he want to save someone... is that someone more important more than me? I just didnt get it why did it ended like this." So shes clueless... i feel guilty but i need to focus in my goal

"What do you mean Baji kill himself? No he didnt do that" she let go and stop hugging me when she hear it "huh? But thats what Jiro tell me and Ryuu didnt say anything"

"Kazutora, he is there hes the one who stab Baji first which make your brothers life in a line.. they didnt tell you that Kazutora did really mean to kill Baji, he even want to kill Mikey but the others stop him" i told her the other details but not fully detailed

"Kazutora again... first Shinichiro-nii then now Keisuke-nii.... i cant forgive him for doing that" i can feel the range in her voice... maybe she really is angry to him... "kisaki, why they didnt want to tell me the truth?" "Maybe because they want kazutora back.. and when they told you what he really did this time, you wont accept him no matter what"

I really need to do this but the guilty eating me up 'focus Kisaki, focus on your goal you need to do this ' i mentally scream to myself

Then i slowly pull her again to my embrace... i dont know i just want to hug her... not romantically but as a sibling i never had

That instant pain of guilt when you know you have betrayed the person that just trusted you her life to you

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"Through the low and the high
I will stay by your side
Theres no need for goodbyes
Now im seeing the light
When the sky turns to grey
And theres nothing to say
At the end of the day
I choose you"