Perfect Stranger (Storm Siblings #4) Eliazar Bert Storm

CHAPTER 23

After the joyful talks in the garden, pumasok na rin kami to have a dinner and after that nag patuloy ang kwentang namin sa may living area at don din sila nag inoman because it's raining outside, pinatulog na rin yung mga bata at nauna na rin mag pahinga sila tito at tita, the boys talks about business while us the girls talks about other stuff, paminsan minsan ay umiinom din kami kahit na ayaw nila wala namn silang magagawa lalo na kay Athena dahil baka bugahan pa sila ng apoy kapag pinainit nila ang ulo nyan hahaha

"Daphne, wala ba kayong balak ni bert na,...you know...settle things down?...like marriage?.." biglang tanong ni Savannah, hindi naman ako agad naka sagot, tumingin ako kay bert na busy sa pakikipag usap sa mga kasama nya, pilit na ngiti ko namang binalik ang tingin ko sa kanila.

"We...we talk about it and...we both agreed not to rush everything,...we're just Enjoying our life being a couple.." sagot ko and drink my liquor.

"Sabagay hindi naman kailangan madaliin yun, but you guys are not getting any younger....life is short you know.." sofìa said.

"Uh-huh...and maybe kuya wants to have a family on his own, sya na lang din kasi ang wala pang mga anak and to think na mahal na mahal nya ang mga pamangkin nya I'm sure gusto na rin nyang magkaron ng sariling anak,...but Ofcourse it's up to you naman Daphne, i know kuya can wait till you both decided to have a kids.." Athena said, i can see that too, how he cares for his nieces kahit na para silang Aso't pusa kung mag bangayan alam kong mahal na mahal nya ang mga ito and i can see that he can be a good father someday.

"Yeah he is.." i said while looking at him, tumingin ito sa gawi ko and he automatically smile at me.

Maski ako gusto ko rin naman na magkapamilya,...pero kasi hindi ko alam kung ano ang pumipigil sakin para gawin yun, maybe because i haven't healed yet, the pain, anger and hatred is still here, my heart still not healed yet.

After our chitchat nag si pahinga na rin kami but i can't sleep so i decided to stay at the veranda for awhile, hindi mawala sa isip ko ang pinag usapan namin kanina, hindi ko alam kung bakit but it's bothered me knowing that bert might really want a family pero ako yung hindi pa handa, baka isang araw magising na lang sya na iwan ako dahil sa hindi ko pa maibigay ang gusto nya.

I'm afraid of losing him but also afraid of giving him the assurance of having a family while I'm still doubting my self.

Napabuntong hininga na lang ako, bakit ko ba to naiisip? Wala pa naman kami sa ganong situation tsk.

"Baka naman malunod ka nyan sa lalim ng buntong hinga mo.." i don't have to turn back to the person who talk because i know it's bert, amoy pa lang nya kilala ko na, naramdaman kong lumapit ito at yumakap mula sa likuran ko.

"I thought your sleeping.." he just buried his face on my neck.

"I miss you already,...bakit nga pala hindi ka pa natutulog?...is there something bothering you?.." marahan nitong tanong, huminga ako ng malalim at niyakap ang mga braso nya tska pumikit.

"Do you think you can wait for me until I'm ready to settle down with you?.." tanong ko rito i felt him still for a second and he let go and face me, malamlam ang mga nitong nakatingin sakin.

"You know I'll always wait you heart, alam kong hindi ka pa handa, kahit naman gustong gusto ko na matali ka sakin at bumuo ng pamilya kasama ka hindi ko naman gusto na pilitin ka sa mga bagay na hindi ka pa handa, heart listen,....whatever happens in the future, whatever fights, upsets, madness or hatred cross among us?, I'm still be here waiting for you no matter how hard to stay, i will stay and wait for you to come to me and be with me for the rest of your life,...life won't go easy with us but as long as your here in my heart, malalagpasan natin yun kahit abutin pa tayo ng taon taon mamahalin pa rin kita at hihintayin kita naiintindihan mo?.." my tears rushing like a lake, how can be this man do this to me, his melting my heart in an instant, yumakap ako dito at umiiyak pa rin hindi dahil sa sakit kundi dahil sa tuwa at saya dahil sa mga sinabi nya.