Sirius woke up covered in sweat . His black curls stuck to his forehead , his grey eyes wide open . He sat up panting and tightly clutching the sheets of his bed . A nightmare .
It was the beginning of the 5th year . His nightmares were always bad at the beginning of the year . This summer was particularly bad . But then again , every summer was worse than the previous one .
There was no way he could fall asleep , not alone at least . James' bed was on his right and Remus' bed on his left . He'd always gone to James . James was used to it . But this time his legs dropped on the left side of his bed . Sirius didn't know why he did it .
He didn't make any sound as he approached Remus' bed , which was not far from his own . He gently opened the red curtains to find Remus sleeping . He looked so peaceful while he was sleeping .
This was the moment Sirius was supposed to turn back and go to James' bed . But he didn't want to wake James, he wanted to wake Remus .
"Moony" He gently nudged the other boy's shoulder ."Moons, wake up ".
Remus awoke , slightly opening his eyes .
"Hm" he mumbled .
Sirius felt his face flush .
"It's me. Sirius " he said "I - I had a nightmare ".
Remus opened his eyes wider and found Sirius' face which was growing hotter by the minute .
"I - I can go " he began to retreat but stopped when he felt Remus' hand on his wrist pulling him into the bed .
"C'mere" the boy murmured, tugging Sirius' arm .
His cheeks were still red ( Thank Merlin the dorm was dark ) Sirius obediently slid under the covers and laid right next to Remus , who wrapped his arms around the boy bringing him closer . Flustered , Sirius simply laid his head on the other boy's chest listening to his steady heartbeat .
The bed was small, that must've been why Remus hugged him so tightly . After all, they barely fit together . Remus was tall and Sirius ... well he wasn't .
Sirius slowly acclimated himself to the situation . Remus smelled of fresh parchment and chocolate - but that wasn't new . What was new was the arm wrapped around Sirius' waist.
"You wanna talk about it ?"
Sirius hesitated then shook his head .
"You wanna sleep or just-".
"I wanna sleep - I just ".
"No ,it's okay "he said "I'm fine with sleeping ".
"Goodnight moony "
Remus didn't answer immediately . Instead, he brushed away the curls that stuck to Sirius' forehead and kissed the place . "Goodnight , love ".
Sirius felt his eyes widen and his cheeks flush again . Remus was tired . That was the only explanation for what he did and said . He could not like a person like Sirius .
Could he ?
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The next morning Sirius woke up to an empty bed .He sat upright , looked around. It was early .Then his ears recorded something new - the sound of the shower running . Sirius flopped back on the bed, relieved . After last night's incident he had been afraid that Remus might've run away .
30 minutes later after everyone in the dorm had left for breakfast , Remus finally left the bathroom . His damp curls were falling over his forehead as he passed Sirius .
"Hey " Sirius said, smiling shyly .
Remus glanced at him briefly saying "Gotta get to breakfast , talk to you later ,Padfoot .
And with that he exited the dorm , leaving Sirius stunned , an empty feeling forming in his stomach .But when Sirius got to the Great hall Remus had already left - again. That only worsened his terror .
He wanted to talk to Remus .His plan had been to gently ask him what the kiss had meant . But now he felt like he had done something , something embarrassing like confessing his feelings for Remus . And didn't remember it .
Remus didn't sit with him in classes and went to bed early .This continued for a week . Sirius understood that Remus was avoiding him but that didn't make him feel better . He tried to remember if he'd done something he shouldn't have .
So , Sirius came up with a plan . They had a charms essay due Thursday and he knew that Remus would stay up late perfecting his essay . So he stole the map from James and waited till the Common Room emptied , leaving only Remus sitting there surrounded by books , fingers covered in ink .
Sirius cleared his throat .
"Sirius ".
Sirius . Not Pads as Remus usually called him . Not even Padfoot .
Ignoring that , he proceeded to sit on the couch beside Remus .
"I need to talk to you "
"I need to finish this " he said, gesturing to the parchment in his hands .
"Moony , You and I both know that your essay is perfect ".
Remus sighed and set his parchment and quill down on the table before him .
"Alright then ".
"Right um , I wanted to talk about what happened that night ".
Remus' eyes widened and he looked away .
"Look I'm really sorry-"
"No , don't be sorry .It's just that you've been avoiding me and I don't know what happened, did I do something or if you're embarrassed -"
"What do you remember".
"Well I remember that i went to your bed , you asked about the nightmare , we said goodbye and - and the you ..."
"Merlin "Remus interrupted him , hiding his face in his hands .
"No , Moony, I just wanted to know if that meant something - cause - ".
He paused and gently pulled Remus' hands away from his face . Only to see something like fear in Remus' eyes .
"Cause that would be okay ".
His face relaxed .
"Really ?"
"Yeah " Sirius smiled .
But then a few seconds later Remus jerked his hands away.
"No "
"N-What ?''
"You're just saying that because you feel bad for me . Stop . You don't have to like me back ".
"But I do like you back , Moony ".
"Sirius , please , I need you to be honest "
And then not thinking Sirius pulled the high end of Remus' tie , smashing their mouths together .
For the first few seconds Remus was taken aback but then he responded , and it felt amazing .
They pulled back after a few long moments , panting and grinning .
"Was that honest enough for you " Sirius asked .
"You bloody idiot " Remus murmured , and pulled Sirius closer , kissing him again .
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Strawberries and Cigarettes
FanfictionA Wolfstar fic inspired by the song "Strawberries and Cigarettes " by Troye sivan. Friends to lovers