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i Wanna feel

"Oh" i whisper

"What you are not coming?" Ish says and she is upset like me as well

"It's okay ish ridz you know girls she have to go her sister you girls heard about her sister isn't well so as a big sister she have to be there and besides don't worry she can come when summer vacation starts you guys can go where you want to but right now don't pressure her " anni says sofly

Uncle nod and says

"Elena you can come and visit whenever you want to our door is Always open for you "
Uncle wink at her last

And she smiles

"Thank you for making me feel welcome" my best friend says

And smile

That's how breakfast went though

.....

"Guess what happened" i asked El as we sat on my bed

"What ? " She asked

"He kissed me last night and choked me as well" i said

Her eyes go wide and she hug me and i laughed at that

"Finally my girl is getting some dick" she says i chuckled and rolled my eyes

"Tell me bitch the whole thing you nasty whore" she says bouncing on my bed

"Ahm when we drank last night he walked me to my door and i managed to seduce him by my body language and when i was close enough he locked gaze with my lips and next moment before i registered his mouth was on me and i response as well

Then he pushed me against my door and choked me" i tell her and her eyes widen at my explanation and she smirk at me

"Seems like he likes it rough but what happened then?" She asked impatient

"Oh yeah then when our tongue met he pull away and El the horror on his face told me he didn't realized what he did it was a scene" i sayid and smirk

"Oh girl that's seems like you will loose you v card on Hamptons best of luck whore" she laughed

Yah it seems like that

"But ish is a problem" i said

"Wait she don't like Sophie bitch the model" she says with a frown
"Ahh yeah she don't but no one deserves to be cheated on " i said with a frown

Why I'm running them

Because you are attracted to him now don't be so good girl and shut up 

Yeah!!

"You know you can't stop yourself now no matter what nor he can but ridz you are playing a dangerous game it will ruin you "
El says her eyes boring into mine

I look at her and then hug her tightly she is the only one person who understands me deeply

''but El will papá and mama can forgive me for my this forbidden desire? Like i don't know why I'm doing this i can't i-i can't stop myself " i told her and gritted out

Trying my hardest not to let my tear fall

"Like El it will ruin me completely he will ruin me  i even want to sacrifice my virginity for him that i have saved for enter life i-i i can't help it whenever he is around i-i seems to loose my mind i-i he is making me insane" i can't help but cry a frustrating cry

"I know love i know i will not say that go away with it but ridz
Everything has a consequences but the consequences can be very bad also can be very good so choose wisely " she says

I just stare at her with my glassy eyes she is so serious this is a rare side of her

" And you need to face it if it's bad or good so are you risking it?" She says again

Am i ready to take the chance?

It is nothing wrong to sometimes if you want to be selfish

Is it wrong?

Just a little selfish?

I think about it sometime it's like i can't i just can't deny but feel it towards him

I wanna feel

Wanna feel

More and more if it comes to him so i think

This weekend

"Yes" i whisper finally as my heart pounded

Elena gave me a soft smile and wipe my tears away

"Sometims it's better to be a little selfish and you don't know what destiny has planned so whatever you are doing it is already planned" she whisper

As we lay on my bed both cuddling

It's true everything has it planned

.......

Everything has it planned by destiny or maybe by the Writer
' wink'

The lazy author

Diya