You Are Mine Alone Nerd! (Y.A.M.A.N)

Your Also Me

By:

Protozena
Enjoy!!

As i was laying on the darkness
i kept thinking what was happening
whenever we switch
i don't know anymore what she's doing
what are the words coming out from her mouth
i can't see nor know
then out of the blue
a figure appeared infront of me

"did i become a murderrer?"
i asked her
she smiled sweet bitterly.

"yes, I did it for you"
she said and i felt i wanna puke, i despise myself i hated myself

"why did you come here so soon? normally it took days, don't you want to enjoy outside?" i asked

she didn't answer
instead looked at me with the eyes i never though she would have

after all
she's the monster inside of me
the monster that i created

i came near her
pat her head
then looked directly at her eyes

"why are you sad?"
i asked

"you can tell?"
she asked

i smiled

"i know you the most, you know me the most, your also me, remember?"

"............."

"what's make you looked like that?"
i asked but she didn't answer

"don't be like that"
i just continued

"don't make me see the face that i always have"

"i did not allow you to make that expression"

"don't be sad"
i said

then out of the blue
my monster hugged me

"i saw them" she said

"them?"

"yes, they are doing well my crystellia"

???

"who are you talking about?"

humiwalay sya sa yakap pero hindi lumayo at hinawakan nya ang magkabilang pisngi ko

"you don't have to know, you don't have to remember, as long as you do, everything's going to be alright, and even if it didn't, i'll eradicate everything for you, even them, just for you"

then, yung mga kamay nya na nasa cheeks ko ay lumakbay patungo sa forehead ko pababa then to my eyes that makes me close them
and it' all darkness again
another dream again
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(crystellia aka vanarie's POV)

"is it personality disorder?"

"i guess so, looked here, it's a sickness where every now and then, a person's personality changes, like it becomes someone else"
ang ingay

"waaa, is it contangious?"
a loud girl asked
ba't ang ingay?!

"hay ewan ko sayo aris"
ano ba yan
napakamot ako ng ulo at dahan dahang minulat ang mga mata ko

ulap

yan ang unang una kong nakita
nasa langit na ba ako?
namatay ba ko ng walang ka malay malay
Bakit kaya?
habang sya ba ang may gamit ng katawan ko?
kala ko ba poprotektahan nya ako
hmm
okay din naman sakin kung buhay o patay man ako pero
buti sa langit ako napunta
alam ko kasi di naman ako mabait
makikita ko na ba sila mommy at daddy
kuya at ate??
kinakabahan ako with that thought
hihingi ba ako ng sorry- - -

di ko na naipagpatuloy ang mga agam agam sa isipan ko ng
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"ARAY!!!"
tumingin ako sa katabi ko
aba
sino sya para sapukin ako?!
pagtingala ko

gulp

"bakulaw"
nakatingin sya sakin with a weird expression

???

"you looked like a fool looking at the window"
sabi ni bakulaw aka oasis

"ano?!"

Sino ba naman ang magagalit at hindi mapapasigaw
kung may biglang sumapok sa sayo at tawagin kang fool habang iniisip ang pagkamatay - - -
teka
humarap ulit ako kay bakulaw
umiinom sya ng kape habang nagbabasa ng libro

napatingin naman sakin si bakulaw at pagkatingin na pagkatingin nya ay hinawakan ko ang pisngi nya

tinignan nya ko ng parang nabigla
pero nagiba ng kinurot ko ang pisngi nya

nahahawakan ko sya

IAM ALIVE!!!!
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ang sakit ng ulo ko
binatukan na naman kasi ako ni bakulaw tas bumalik na ulit sya sa pagbabasa pero mas masakit yung batok nya ngayon ha
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tas ng makagetover ako sa ka o.ayan ko na kala ko nasa langit na ako
sumandal ako sa upuan at napatingin ulit sa bintana
may langit -_-||
kinabahan ako bigla
unti unti akong tumingin sa unahan ko
tas may dalawang taong nakatingin sakin

"aris, john, may tatanong sana ako"

"ano yun?"
tanong ni aris na nakangiti

"nasa eroplano ba tayo na kasalukuyang lumilipad?"

"oo, at obviously lumilipad mabigla ka vanarie kapag nakakita ka ng eroplano sa kalsada"
nakangiti pa rin sya

"hey aris look, it's out"
biglang tumingin si aris sa katabi nya na si john

"really? let me take a look"
sabi nya tas ibinigay ni john ang laptop na nasa lap nya
at sabay nila itong tinignan at bigla silang napatingin sakin
tas biglang umingay
pagtingin ko sa paligid
may walong upuan akong nakikita sa hilera ko
may dalawang upuan sa harap ko na si aris at john ang nagoocuppy
katabi ko si bakulaw at ganito din ang setup sa kabila de bale walo at ewan ko sa likuran kac dun nagmumula ung ingayan at murmmurs

"it's posted, everyone take a look to the ones who got into the rankings"
biglang may nagsalita
pamilyar na boses
pagtungin ko sa kabila
ate danica??
at may hawak pa talaga sya microphone

pero teka

sagutin nyo muna ako

BAKIT AKO NASA EROPLANO AT SAAN TAYO PUPUNTA!!

To Be Continued