Synthesis of Scattered Pieces ✔️

16.

(Here I'm dying and you're enjoying my situation?)

"Ab is jaan ko sambhal kar rakh, koi aa gya hai Jo is ki fikr krega." This time she wasn't teasing me but saying very seriously. There was something in her voice that gave me goosebumps.

(Take care of yourself, now someone is here to keep a check on you.)

Deni and me?
Is this possible?

"Affo please, I don't want to think about Deni in that way." Pushing away that topic I entered the library and search for a book which I got easily. Thankfully something is proven easy in my life. "Why? Now, what's wrong with Daniyal? And What's this book about?" Looking at afifa I sigh. The process of forgetting Faraz was devastating for me, now I couldn't handle another heartbreak. And above all, I know I don't deserve Deni. One shouldn't dream too high and I know my limits."

"At least you can pray to get him." I stared at Afifa for a long moment before smiling bitterly.

"Ab himmat nhi hai..."

"What?"

"Nothing" mumbling that I started reading what I wanted. Afifa was saying me to pray for gettingDeni but she didn't know what I was hiding in my heart. After hundreds of unanswered prayers of getting Faraz, I had decided not to pray for a particular person. I left everything on my face; that's my biggest fear. I'm afraid, what will happen if my destiny will be like her?

"What are you reading?" Afifa asked and I focused on the pages of that old book while informing about my idea to be represented in front of David Sir.

"Please talk to Deni too..." She placed her hand on my hand and I glared at her.  "Affi Can't you change this topic?" I asked with frustration.

"No I can't and won't" She sat down beside me and I glare at her, but I shouldn't forget that she was no one else but Afifa. She won't be afraid of my glare till the last breath of my life.

"Yaar, I don't have time to walk on you." This time I was pretty rude, her facial expressions changed.

"Why are you shouting Shifa?"

I again glared at her. Why everyone is ready to order me and control my emotions.

"You know what Afifa, I guess I've been giving you more than enough rights over myself. Stop controlling my life and decisions. You're a friend stay within your limits, I don't need an extra parent in college." I burst on her before stepping out from the library.

I am already done with everyone.

I left the book in the library so I took the help of my mobile to read a PDF of Sheeri and Farhad's story. I was preparing myself to express my idea in front of David Sir. Yesterday I was feeling scared when he was scolding the other staff members. It's difficult for me to stay in front of him. After papa David sir was the only man who makes my breath hitched with his aggressive voice. I wish I won't get scolded, but due to self-doubt, I couldn't say anything.

Lifting my eyes I found Afifa going towards the classroom, she glared at me and I repeated her act. Enough of my tolerance, from now onwards, I won't listen to anyone. Stubborn and ill-mannered people are better than polite ones. No one orders them.

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"Are you ready with your idea?" My breath was hitched after listening to that question which was thrown towards me from David Sir. Gulping my saliva, I nodded.

"Start narration. But in brief. I don't have much time" I again nodded and open my diary to read the notes I had made a few hours ago while bunking my lectures. "Sir I wanna make people remember about Sheeri and Farhad." His brows furrowed naming me nervous.