Why Try

Chapter 1

Feeling the pain

Nyota was in her room listening to music. She did this to block out her parents yelling down stairs. They yelled at each other a lot. She wondered if they ever loved each other. Some part of her blamed herself. She then took off her headphones to go to the bathroom. Before she made it to the bathroom she heard her mom yelling at her dad. What she heard broke her even more. "I NEVER NEEDED YOU GET OUT OF MY HOUSE YOU WORTHLESS SHIT!!!" She then heard her dad yell back. "FINE WE'LL SEE HOW LONG YOU LAST WITHOUT ME!!". The door slammed shut and Nyota felt her heart clench. She ran to her room and put her headphones back on and turned her music way up. She cried herself to sleep.

After this it was just her and her mom. She was five when her dad left. Ever since then her mom told her only bad things about him. She told her things like " he has done bad things. He never cared about us. He was involved with even worse people." Her mom even told her she didn't have a last name. Nyota didn't know what to think. Without her dad the hole inside begins to grow. What was left for her with a drunk mom and no dad?

Time skip- present time

Nyota pov- I was in my room on the phone with my friends. Tess,Alissa, and Jurnee. They were my closest friends. Some would say my only friends. I heard my mom and the other room. She was breathing fast . I put my phone down and went to see if she was ok. "You ok ma" I asked when I made it to her room. She shook her head. I began to worry,she was crying. I walked over to her and wrapped my arm around her shoulder. "Tell me what's wrong" I asked, deeply concerned. She looked at me and smiled brokenly . "You had to grow up without a father because of me. You never deserve that. I'm a bad parent and you deserve better." What she was saying was worrying me even more, it wasn't her fault. I know almost nothing about my father but the few things my mom did tell me about him ,he sounded like an ass so no I didn't want him in my life. She shouldn't blame herself. "Mom, what are you talking about?" I asked, sure she could hear how worried I was. "Look love, I'm not in a good place right now. You know that and you deserve a healthy family. Not one where you don't even have a last name. So what I'm trying to say is-" I stopped her in the middle of her sentence knowing where it was going. "No I'm not going anywhere,you're not going anywhere ok we stay together your my mom and that's all I need I'm 15 you can't leave me it's not fair." I yell, tears in my eyes. I don't know why I was so angry. My mom then got up and hugged me. I knew I didn't change her mind. "You will have to live with my sister while I get myself together " I cry into her shoulder for a second then push back and run to my room. Why me? I think then I realized that I'm still on the phone so I quickly hung up and just cried
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A/N
Been in a bit of a slump with everything but I'm trying to break it. The story might not be good yet but I swear it will be. At least I'll try and make it.