Just a Little Bit

Three

I wake up to the sun in my face again! DAMN IT! Note to self: Close the curtains when you go to sleep at night dumbass!

I look at the clock and see it is 7:18 and no one is home. I walk to the kitchen and see a note on the counter. It says:

Dear Syd,

I already took your sister to school and she spending the rest of the month over Ganga's (my grandma) house. I am going out of town on a business trip to Maryland for a month. I put $5,000 dollars on your card and SPEND IT WISELY! I love you! Have a great month.

P.S. You are allowed to have one party. JUST ONE! but if any of my stuff comes up missing and/or broken that's your ass young lady!

Love,

Your Mommy

Did she just say I have $5,000 dollars?! I got some creepers and odd future gear I need to buy but first...FOOD. I need to go the grocery store, then maybe to Earthbound to buy those plaid creepers I have had my eye on.

As I am getting my bags out of the trunk of my car, I see Mack walking towards me out of the corner of my eye. He smiles and says, "Lemme handle those for you." I'm not in the caving type of mood today so I said, "I am a grown woman! I can carry my own bags thank you." He chuckles and says, "Girl if you don't hand over those bags I will be forced to do something I know you ain't ready for." At this point, I don't really know what to say. Part of me is curious to see what he is going to do and the other part of me wants to scream rape and blow my no-no whistle. So I decided to say, "You ain't gonna do shi-" He starts to tickle the actual fudge outta me. We are the ground rolling in the grass until I holler timeout. "Okay! Damn it you can carry my bags.", I said as we got up off the ground.

We walked in and put the groceries up and chilled. I decided to break the silence.

"So... how is your dad?"

"In Maryland. He has a business trip."

"That's funny because my mom is too."

"Where is your sister?"

"She is at my Ganga's house."

"Ganga?"

"Grandma."

"Oh Okay"

"Sister?"

"Auntie's house"

Then we both had an epiphany! WTF!!!

"Do you think-?"

"OMG NO DON'T SAY IT! THAT'S SO FUCKING NASTY!"

"KILL THE IMAGE, LORD!!! KILL THE IMAGE!"

We stopped and looked and each other and started to crack up. After we caught our breath, I decided to make us something to eat. Mack followed me into the kitchen. "What do you want to eat? I bought almost the whole store.", I joke. He puts his finger on his chin as he thinks. "Hmmm... Can you make some shrimp and chicken alfredo?"

"Sure!"

"Okay dope. I got a question though?"

"Shoot."

"Can I stay here with you? I mean we both are alone and our parents are doing the nasty so we basically step sib's."

"Step-sib's?"

"Stepsiblings."

"Okay and sure. Go get your stuff while I cook. You can have the guest room." He nodded and left. I continued to cook dinner. After dinner, we decided to watch a movie. As we were watching it, I felt Mack grab my hand.

"Mack."

"Yeah?", he says huskily.

I swear when he looked at me, I thought if I didn't kiss him now I would die.

"Why are you holding my hand? If Sangria found out she would be hurt."

"You're right. But I have never felt like this before..."

"Felt like what?"

"I feel like I have known you all my life. Like when I'm around you I can be myself. I don't have to think about sex or my status when I'm with you. Since being with you I have been stress-free, drama free, just... all around carefree.", he explained. 

After he said that I knew what had happened. He seems like he is....hopefully he's in love with me in a friend type of way.

"I think I'm falling for you Sydney."

Damn.

"In a friend way right? I mean we can't be together."

"No not in a friend way. I love you like a man loves a woman, couple, make love to all night until you tell me to stop, I'm not pulling out, Imma get you pregnant type of way."

Damn.

"What about Sangria?! She is gonna hate me forever for this. She was my first friend when I got here. I can't lose her."

"I know you love me...well like me a lot."

"No, I don't.", I lied.

"Stop lying. It's written all over your face."

"No, I'm not lying!!!!!", I looked down when I said this.

"Look me in my eyes and say you don't have any feelings for me. LOOK AT ME AND SAY IT!", he screamed.

I couldn't do it. I just can't. He read me like an open book.

Damn.

I stood there, silent, not saying a word.

He walked up to me, lifted my chin up, I got lost in his eyes. His lips started to come close to mines.

"NO MACK I CAN'T!!!!"

Mack stopped and looked at me. "Fine. I gotta go."

And with that, he left.

Damn.

What have I done?