Finally! (Camilo X Reader)

part 9: Camilo's struggles

You get outside and sit down next to Camilo at the table. You look at him and greeted him, but he just let out a quiet "hi". He didn't even look at you. You felt a bit hurt, is he mad at me? You wonder.

You eat lunch and keep trying to talk to Camilo, but he just ignores you and avoids your gaze.

When lunch is over you see Camilo going upstairs to his room.

You help clean up and go to his room after. You decide to knock first. It was silent for a few seconds when you heard a faint voice. "What?".

"Can I come in?" You ask.

"Sure."

You get inside the room and see Camilo standing in front of one of the many mirrors he has. You notice him wiping a few tears from his face.

Your heart sinks, it hurts seeing this boy, who is always sunny and happy cry. You get up behind him and hug him from behind while shushing him.

In the reflection of the mirror you see some tears forming in his eyes.

"What's wrong?" You ask in a shushing voice.

Instead of an answers he breaks out in tears, turns around and swings his arms around your neck.

"Hey, hey, it's okay. Let it all out." You whisper to him.

You stay there holding him while he let's all of it out. After ten minutes or so you feel him calming down.

When he stops crying you hold him for a few minutes, while stroking his back.

Then you lead him to his bed and sit him down next to him. You grab his hand and squeeze it for a moment.

"Are you ready to talk about it?" You ask with a tender smile.

He nods, avoiding eye contact.

"Just tell me what's on your mind." You give him another squeeze in his hand. "I won't judge you."

He slowly looks at you. He has still some tears in his eyes. One tear goes down his cheek and you wipe it away.

"You can tell me anything, i won't tell anyone."

"Promise?" He asks with a broken voice.

"Promise." You smile at him.

He lets out a deep sigh. "I just don't really know who I am anymore. Everytime I see my reflection it feels like I'm missing something, like I'm someone different from the last time i saw myself." Another tear rolls down his cheek, he wipes it away himself. "It's just so stressful."

You are silent for a moment, you don't know what to say, you don't know what to do. You feel Camilo getting more upset the longer you stay silent. "That's totally fine Camilo. It's something you need to figure out, that takes time. Just remember you are loved just how you are. You don't need to pretend."

He gives a little smile and then starts crying again. "Thank you." He says in tears and he buries his head in your chest. You stroke his back while shushing him.

"Just be who you are, okay?"

"Okay." He says all sobbing.

You two just sit there holding each other.

A few hours later and you are still holding each other, but now you're laying down, cuddling. You lay on your back with Camilo having his arm and head on your chest, while you have your arm around him.

You play with his hair. You never knew he thought this way. Stupid of you to not notice. You're just happy he told you about it.

"I love you." He whispers to you.