Indecisive (Loki Laufeyson x Bucky Barnes x Reader)

CHAPTER 29

I didn't answer, I didn't look at him. I was not going to show him how much that kiss hurt because he was no longer worth it. I am so sick and tired of continuously trusting people so easily and now I've learned my lesson. And maybe I was being naïve for getting mad at him for something we had never put a label on, only I don't care. I steeled myself creating an impassive face before turning around.

"I don't care what you do James. I really don't. Thank you for teaching me not to listen or fall for the traps you self-righteous pricks think are okay." I smiled sarcastically before turning back. He didn't speak. He didn't react to what I had said for a long time. Long enough for the elevator doors to open and for me to step inside, hoping he wouldn't follow.

He of course, did exactly what I knew he would do and followed right behind.

"Y/N, we never made ourselves exclusive. We made no rules, we didn't exactly tell each other we weren't seeing anyone else. I am not going to be at fault here for something that shouldn't matter. That kiss didn't matter, she didn't matter. I don't think you should be getting as mad as you are, she was just a little fun for tonight." he spoke almost in a plead.

I could only scoff, "So first you try and turn the situation on me and make it my fault for looking too deep in to what we were starting AND THEN you try to what? Reassure me by telling me that she was nothing to you?" I could only laugh at him, "God you really are a good manipulator. Is that what you told her when she asked you if you were seeing anyone else? That I was nothing? That we were nothing? Just a meanings to an end." I couldn't help but smile at his attempt to make me feel in the wrong.

He stared back at me, anger building in his eyes,"Now you're just spinning my words, trying to make me feel bad for what I did. It was a kiss Y/N! I wasn't asking her to fuck me! Do you care about anything I've said or are you just being self-centred and jealous." he yelled.

"Last time I checked James, your feelings aren't the only thing that matters in this situation but I'm glad you're trying to make everything about you. That poor girl is probably freezing outside in the cold where you left her and you're arguing with me in a fucking elevator about who's wrong?" I began to raise my voice as well. I didn't care that what I was saying was a bit over the top. He had no right to blame me for being upset after he'd slept in my bed, cuddled me, made out with me, held me on the balcony and then told me he could never be embarrassed around me.

And now he's talking like I'm the one whose looking too far into this? Who wouldn't for gods sake. Where does he think he gets the audacity to flip this on me? I certainly will not be putting up with his complete and utter bullshit any longer.

"For the second time we weren't exclusive, I don't even know what we were." he lifted his hands to thread through his hair.

"That is bullshit and you know it. Now you're just making up sad excuses to validate your actions." I turned in a circle with my arms up, "No one's fucking watching James. No one is going to come here and pat you on the back and tell you that what you did regardless of the fact that we hadn't made anything official okay. Its good to know though that that is how you felt after what we'd done together." I didn't raise my voice, I spoke only in a reasonable tone. I crossed my arms over each other and leaned against the elevator railing.

He pushed the stop button on the elevator before it reached my floor. I couldn't help but let out a sigh and cover my eyes with my hands.

Tonight couldn't get any fucking worse could it?

"That's not what I think about what we did together and you know it. I got a bit carried away tonight okay? Nothing else happened with her." He tried to take my hand in his but I stepped to the side.