in another life | yang jungwon ✔️

3.5 | a bigger mistake

ayame went to school next day, trying to forget what happened last night.

riki had placed a bandaid on her cheek to cover her cut. the two had stopped off at a convenience store to buy cheap makeup so they can cover their marks, mainly so ayame could cover the red marks from her father choking her.

ayame was having a bad day yesterday and after the whole thing with jungwon it was turned around and then her father thing happened and it was bad again.

she could just never have a good day without it ending bad.

but thinking back on her and jungwon made a small grin show up on her face. she tried to hide it but she couldn't.

riki could see the smile but he didn't want to question it because it was nice to see her happy after last night.

the two separated their ways as ayame went to her class and riki went to his class.

ayame entered her class and jungwon was already there, sitting in his seat talking to another classmate.

their eyes locked and while ayame let out a small grin, jungwon just looked back at his friend, talking as if he didn't see ayame.

'okay..' ayame thought, her small smile dropping as she walked over to her seat and sat down, her legs sore and bruises but she wore tights under her skirt so it wasn't obvious.

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ayame sat by herself again at lunch. jungwon had been ignoring her and now ayame was paranoid

"did i do something..?" she mumbled, "does..he regret last night?"

there was nothing else that ayame could think about and she knew it had to be about last night.

she sighed and ducked her head down, "i knew i shouldn't have gotten my hopes high..i'm so dumb"

despite this hurting her heart, without even knowing the truth of why jungwon was ignoring her, she should've known that him falling for her as well was impossible.

but she wanted to know the truth.

she stood up from the bleachers and was about to walk but stopped when she saw someone at the bottom.

jungwon.

the boy walked up to the bleachers and stood beside her.

ayame slowly sat back down and jungwon sat beside her but it was silent between the two

ayame was scared of this. usually jungwon was bright and talkative but even he was silent and this made her worried.

she deeply just wanted to know what was wrong. if it truly was because of last night.

"hey ayame.." he began and she quickly listened, "uhm..about last night"

"oh its-"

"it was a mistake"

she was taken back by this.

..a mistake?

"it wasn't supposed to happen. i was just caught up in the moment you know? i like you but as a friend of course. i don't want to give you the wrong impression" jungwon explained to her and ayame's heart dropped

'i like you but as a friend'

that hurt so much.

"yah..a mistake" she mumbled, a small bitter chuckle leaving her mouth

"so..are we cool? sorry i ignored you..i just didn't know how to react about it and approach you but i didn't want us to fight or ignore each other more than that as we just reconciled our friendship" jungwon spoke, a small smile on his face not knowing he just broke the fragile girl's heart.

"yah..we're cool" she nodded and he smiled brightly

"great!" he stood up, "see you later?"

"see you later.." she waved bye to the boy and the boy waved as well, leaving the girl.

once he was completely gone, she let out a breath and looked down at her shoes. her breath hitched before tears wanted to fall but she had cried so much that week that no tears fell.

she then chuckled bitterly again, "this is why i shouldnt get my hopes high"

she hated it. she hated how the boy made her feel. it was her first time feeling like that and now she was shattered.

but she didn't blame him at all

because who would like her?

who would like a depressed, anxious, suicidal girl who has so many scars on her heart and her life?

she should've known better

and once her insecurities started going down..now they were going back up making her insecure and hate herself even more.

"i hate it here.."