Lifeless

People?

Everything was always screwed up

I wasnt the bright one.My family always saw me as the disspointment and mistake no surpise their.My older brother was top of his class and on the football team everything my family ever wanted.

I was the kid who was the queer and "emo" kid i loved drawing more than anything i didnt like sports at all.I loved being alone listening to music i wasnt the brightest but i wasnt the dumbest either .In reality i do my brothers homework so he doesnt fall because he is useally sneaking out and having sex with girls late at night at partys.

I couldnt say that was bad of him like my family would if they found out.I wasnt the good kid myself i had my fair share of bad shit .Over the years and still going.I didnt have many friends and when i did make friends they were not always the best people

I was always drawn towards the risk taking .It was the people who broke the rules.The ones who didnt give a shit what society thought of them.The cool ones the ways who stayed late out at night.The ones who skateboarded and spray painted the sides of buildings and train carts.They were the ines who partyed the ones who smoked .They were just trying to live their best life on this shitty earth.

No one liked the people i hangout with but i didnt care i wanted risk taking and crazy people in my life they made everything more interesting and fun.I remember when my family freaking out when i let my hair grow out some and i dyed it.My friend conviced me to get pericing my mother freaked out but i didnt care anymore i just want to feel alive at this point.

I wanted to feel alive risk taking is one of the things that was enjoyable and made you feel alive .The rush of spraypainting and trying not to get caught.

Evan my best friend is 19 he has streched hair and tattoos down his arms.He has a bright green hair  he is one of the few people who got me to start dying my hair. 

Vix red headed short curly haired girl 17 she has snake bites and guess what she has her nipples periced .She listens to rock music she loves rock music and anything purple shes bisexual.

Justin hes 15 one of the younger people of our group .He is Vixs half brother hes pretty chill he knows who to get the best weed from.

Qyuill their pretty cool fun fact their nonbinary .Their 16  they dont have the best home life but than again nun of us do.

They were my people they were keeping me going they were my family

I cared more about them more than anything i needed them more than anything.

Evan is another story tho I have known evan since we were 11 and 13 .They just moved in down the street .They are so differt than back than they were my first friend ever and i shall amit i fell in love with him over the years.

But i can never be with him.