[a healthy mind is not easy to achieve, but it's the most important factor in life. you need it to be able to enjoy the only life Allah's given you.]
— S A W E R A —
Airports are so so so fun. But what's even more fun is reaching home.
A home I never called mine.
The second jail.
It's the first time I've laughed at it instead of cringing. I was cute a few years back, had a very different mindset and it was very sweet and innocent.
In these eight months I've had lots of first times.
They make me so happy, I don't know if I want to go back to Azaan or if I want to bring him here, with me, and go on a long long road trip and become a khanabadosh.
I always thought recovery would happen all of a sudden. Just the way I landed back in Azaan's life, I thought it'd just happen one good day. One day some situation would arise and I'd behave so different, so unlike me... I forgot I had planned to fall in love with myself.
Falling in love with me.
Not becoming someone unlike me.
I did not plan on changing myself.
And aaagh! it really was a journey. It was meeting new people. Good and bad people. They all picked a highlighter and marked out the best parts of me. The change never happened all of a sudden, nor was the self-love forced on me, but yes I did forcefully leave the negative thoughts.
I ignored them whenever they arised. I knew they were the root of all my problems.
A month ago, I decided going back to Seville. I started living in the same small house where we spent our honeymoon.
This time, I didn't know how long my stay would last. I just knew that at the end of the stay, this journey would end. I knew this was my last stay, after it I was going back to my love.
And here I am.
Turning the keys on the door of our apartment, where he's currently living.
Not yet a perfect human being. But a very confident, strong and beautiful one.
I tiptoe inside, embracing the cold of November.
2PM of a Sunday afternoon.
I haven't talked to Azaan in three weeks, he's definitely not expecting me.
As I walk in, I notice the whole house dimmed obscure. As if nobody were living here.
Is he back? Or is he still in the office.
I walk to the empty study, look around, then to our room and sit there. Kind of disappointed.
It's always my self-care, my self-love, my self-esteem. He never thinks for himself.
It's unhealthy to work at such le—
I hear small thuds and turn the lights of our room on.
I roam my gaze.
He's not in the bathroom either.
Where is the—
It comes again. Seems like it's coming from the guestroom.
I turn the lights off and walk there with a heart full of love.
My Shahrukh Khan stands there, trying to mimic the painting he bought for me.
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