-Sad-
Tw: extreme depression and existential dread also finding an old Hot Topic
You were different from the usual Dissasembly Drones. Something was wrong with your code and it made you extremely sad and anxious all the time.
N and J noticed after awhile, N trying his best to support you while J just ridiculed you for this error. V, didn't seem to know or care.
One day, you and N were patrollingt he skies for any Worker Drones. So far your search was unsuccessful, but you two were having a blast just flying together and making jokes. Then N saw something that caught his eye and he lead you down to see.
"What'd you find buddy?"
You asked as you landed next to the kneeling N. He turned around and moved you to the side to see what looked like a black leather jacket with some magazines inside. You picked up the jacket while N scanned the magazines
"Woahh, Y/N look! These humans look so cool in these clothes! I bet you'd look cool in them too."
The adorable bb said as he showed you the contents of the relic. You 'woahed' as well and scanned the contents. It was an edgy teen fashion magazine, which you thought looked really cool
"Wait, let me try this thing on and see if it fits."
You said suddenly before pulling off your Dissasembly Drone uniform and putting on the leather jacket. N's visor showed him blushing and he bounced a little
"AAA YOU LOOK SO COOL!! Let's see if there are more clothes like this!!"
He said excitedly before dragging you off to explore the city ruins. You were dragged along by him and stumbled a bit before stopping in front a ruined building. The sign looked evil and threatening, kinda like the magazine logo.
N went inside and scanned the items, gasping at how spoopy but cool they looked. You were floored by all the stuff inside and found a bunch of spiked stuff
"Y/N all this stuff would look so good on you! We are spending the night here and doing a fashion show."
The adorable boi said with a big smile on his face while you looked a little stunned
"O-Ok if you say so."
He got a little giddy and dragged you over to different sections of the human shop. He picked out different outfits while you sat there awkwardly, holding a plushie of some sort. It looked like a green blob with a large head and little black appendages.
The sun eventually came up, but you and N covered up the windows beforehand so you'd be ok. N was still coming up with cute outfits while you tried them on. To be completely honest, you looked really good in black and red. The two of you were just having a blast together. Little moments like these made you feel normal, and not like a failure with self destructive thoughts from messed up coding.
This is nice.
Nightfall eventually came and N woke you up. He had bags of clothing in his arms and was smiling
"C'mon, we should get back. J and V are probably worried about us."
He said as you got up and shook yourself awake. You helped carry a few bags and the two of you set off back to the corpse tower you called home.
"Great, the two idiots didn't die. And I thought I was lucky for once."
J said as soon as you landed. She only glanced at you before continuing to play cards with V. The psycopath of the group didn't even acknowledge that you and N came back.
"Me and Y/N found some really cool human things and-"
"Nobody asked N! Just shut up and do something not useless before I find a reason to kill you."
You flinched at her words and slunk into a dark corner you called home. It was a little mound made of Worker Drone corpses, the small room inside always dark. It was comforting but thoughts of dying and being worthless always spiralled out of control when you went inside. It was comforting but painful, something familiar you loved yet feared.
Worthless pathetic trash, not even good enough to earn happiness
So broken that I shouldn't even exist let alone be alive
Why is my code so wrong this is wrong I am wrong just why
Nothing more than scrap metal that is a speck in the universe
I should die-
"Hey Y/N, you ok in there?"
You grumbled a little but poked your head out to see N. He gently pulled you out and held you in his arms
"You spiraling again?"
A simple nod
"Mm, want to just lay down while I play with your hair?"
Another small nod and the wholesome boy got to work. N is actually the one who tied J's hair up into pigtails, he is just good at styling hair somehow. Plus it just feels nice
"I don't deserve you.."
You mumbled out with a sad smile. N looked down at you with concern before wrapping his arms around your torso
"No, I don't deserve YOU."
He replied with a smile you could hear. You chuckled and placed a hand on his, leaning back in comfort
"Do you think we could find some hair dye? I want to color my hair black."
"Ooo yes, when we are on patrol again I'll look for some. Maybe we can find some paint too and add cool patterns on you!"
"Heh, yea. Sounds like a plan."
