•A Gasa4 Story ~ Player X Reader •

• Chapter 7 •

Btw huge time skip here,like its been months after the hang out with player,Y/N and cashr😭😭

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This is gonna be so dramatic im gonna cry

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Player POV:

Its been a while now since cashier first met Y/N.They were both chill with eachother but sometimes they're really awkward together.But now...

Its like they're the best friends.They're not awkward with eachother anymore and they talk often now.I almost feel left out,haha...

Well,anyways..I honestly dont mind if Cashier steals my place as Y/N's best friend.Because i no longer wanted to be Y/N's best friend.

I wanted to be something more than that...

These past few months ive been... feeling different.
Not in a bad way or anything but irs just..i dont know how to explain it.

Well,usually im confident but whenever im around THEM i feel strange.Like i get nervous and start sweating.Like how i'd feel my cheeks turn red around them.The way i get so shy whenever they appear.

When i noticed this,i finally realized...

I've catched feelings.
As much as i want to deny it,i cant.I cant stop myself from falling.And the way they always spend time with me,the way they smile,laugh,act and more just does help at all it just makes me fall for them more.They were always there for me through hard times.They were the only one who genuinely cared for me and stayed with me till this day.

I know that i should confess these feelings to them and tell them how i really feel but...
I felt guilty.

Why?
Because i feel like ive been a bad friend to them.Always teasing and making fun of them because i find it funny.They probably hate me but hides it.Well,even if they do...they will always have a special place in my heart and i will always...ALWAYS love them.I love them so much it hurts.

I dont know what to do.
I want to get rid of this sick feeling but at the same time i dont wanna ruin our friendship.

Im scared.
Of telling them how i feel.
Maybe,its better...
If i just try to conceal...the truth.

For me..and for them.

I'll endure it all.
I'll keep silent.
I just dont want them to end our friendship because of this.
Its better to stay as friends than...than that..

No matter how much it hurts.
Its for the best.

"Player?"
A familiar voice said.
I snapped out of my thoughts to see Y/N who has been watching me doze off this entire time.
"You good bro?"
They asked,a bit concerned.
"Ohh-Yeah im fine dont worry!"
I quickly replied,scratching the back of my neck.
"Mhmm."
They turned away from me and faced back to cashier and started talking to him again.

I know i should be happy.I wanted this.I was the one who wanted them to meet eachother.Yet why do i feel so...angry?no,no..thats not the right word.

Jealous..?
I stared at the two who were happily laughing together.Thats not fair.This isnt fair.How come cashier gets to make them laugh while im here...here not even managing to make Y/N smile.Was i really that bad of a friend?Did i even matter to them?Maybe i dont deserve them..

I felt my eyes get a bit teary from these thoughts now.God,Im so pathetic.

Im such a shitty friend thats why they dont want me.

Who would ever love me?

They're probably not even interested in me and dont like me back.

They're gonna replace me soon with Cashier,i can feel it.

They definitely hate me.

All i ever wanted was for you to love me.

I couldnt take it anymore and stood up from the counter.Looking away from the two figures who were now staring at me.

"I...need some time alone for a moment.Nothing is wrong dont worry,i just want some...some fresh aiR."i mumbled,my voice cracking.Without another minute wasted,i walked out as fast as i could.

Dont cry.
Dont cry.
Dont cry.
Dont cry
Dont cry.
Dont cry.

I keep repeating these two words in my head.Forcing my eyes to not make more tears.My vision starting to get blurry.

I rushed back home.
I need to cry.

I quickly opened the front door and rushed to my bedroom.
I tried to keep quiet as possible,not wanting to wake up my dad.
Finally when i got to my room,i reached for the doorknob and turned it.Gently opening the door.

I went inside.
Closing the door behind me quietly as a i slid down onto the floor and curled up.I let the tears fall down and all my sadness take over me,i was soon a sobbing mess with my hands on my face.I didnt wanna go out there and see them again.

I just wanna isolate and distance myself.Ive tried to act distant towards Y/N but i just got more attached.Why am i like this?I just wanna move on and forget.

It hurts so much.
I cant take it.
I crawled over to my bed and climbed on it,putting the blanket over me.
My eyes were bloodshot from all the crying and tired.Maybe...If i sleep ill forget about all of this.?
I tried to calm myself down but soon enough i felt my eyelids feel heavy.My eyes slowly closing and my vision getting blurry.I finally close my eyes and fell asleep.

I dont feel like talking to Y/N and Cashier tomorrow...Ill just say im sick.
Yeah..ill just say that.

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(This is so dramatic guys please send help im being help hostage to write this)

Third person POV but with Y/N:

Its been more than 30 minutes since Player left for some 'fresh air' and they still havent came back.Y/N was really starting to get worried,they looked back to the door after glancing at their watch for the 15th time.
"Hey Y/N,You should go check up on them."
Y/N turned around to see Cashier with a concerned look on his face.
"Maybe you're right...I'll go check up on them.See you later Cash."
They quickly said,getting off the counter.Cashier waved them goodbye even though Y/N didnt see it.All they were focused on was looking for Player.

And the first thing that came to their mind was Player's house.

Y/n has never been at Player's house before because of Player's strict dad.So this will be Y/N's first time vising their friend's house.

But anyways,Y/N has also noticed Player's strange behaviours too.
Like how Player has been less talkative,how they refuse to hang out now,how they sometimes act cold and distant towards Y/N.

It was all weird and sudden,Were they sick?Y/N thought.I mean if they were they still would still have their usual personality but...

Y/N slows down a bit.

But now...
Player seemed like a whole entire different person.
This wasnt the Player they knew.
Something was definitely wrong.
Y/N snapped out of their thoughts and looked up to see the house they've been searching for.

Player's house.
It looked big but when Y/N entered,oh boy were they surprised.
It was pretty small.There were like only a few rooms.Y/N scanned the area more as they close the door behind them QUIETLY.Dont wanna wake up Player's dad now do they?They passed the living room and walked through a hallway to see a door.

Even though they've never been to Player's house before,Y/N recognized the door as Player's room since the other door seems to lead to the bathroom.

Y/N took a deep breath before gently opening the door.