Funny Little Love

What Rumor???

26

ALEX

"Did you hear about the rumor?" Cain asked.

"What rumor?" I look at him, confused.

He raises his eyebrows questioningly.

"You really don't know this?" Cain asked.

"Why would I ask you if I did?" I say impatiently.

Whatever this is, the way Cain looks at me, makes me guess that it's gonna be something bad.

I recall all the girls at the parking lot yelling about how their body looked better than some mystery figure. It was weird. Why would they be suddenly yelling at Shawn about their bodies? They usually never do.

"How do you not know? I thought Shawn and you were close." Cain says, looking at me almost pitifully.

An uncomfortable feeling creeps into my stomach. I can feel my heart beating faster and I know that it's not due to something pleasant.

I am afraid.

A rumor related to Shawn. What this time? Am I gonna get hurt again?

"Don't give me a heart attack. What is it?" I ask, my heart thumping vigorously.

What did he do this time?

"Shawn is -" Cain is interrupted by Mrs. Davis.

"Students are supposed to pay attention in my class." she announces, her disapproving eyes on Cain.

He looks at Mrs. Davis apologetically.

He pretends to focus by staring at the board but the moment Mrs. Davis turned around with the board marker in her hand to write something on the board, he leans towards me to get closer.

"Shawn's dating some mystery girl." he whispers.

WHAT?

The pang in my heart grows more pronounced, the uncomfortable feeling in my stomach gets a thousand times more uncomfortable and my brain in thrown into a wild confusion.

We had sex yesterday. He was so amazing to me. We slept together. He was so cute this morning. He told me he loved me.

Did he hook up with me just to cheat on some girl?

Was I just his one night comfort partner?

"Are you okay? You've been staring at me for a couple of minutes now." Cain said, worriedly.

I can't think of anything to say.

"Huh?" I say, which is kind of the only response I can think of right now.

"I'm so sorry. I thought you already knew. He moved on pretty quickly." Cain whispered looking at me sympathetically.

Moved on? We had sex yesterday. He's a fucking double timer. A master cheater. He's cheating on me and some other girl at the same time. Well, cheating on me considering we are in a relationship which I have no idea if we are.

"You must be really sad." Cain whispered, occasionally taking a break from looking at me sympathetically to check if Mrs. Davis was looking.

I didn't reply.

I wasn't sad. I was angry. Angry at myself, angry at myself, angry at my crush on Shawn and me being attracted to him which makes me fall for him, every, single, time.

His words seem so genuine, but his actions, so conflicted. Fucking exhausting.

The class ends. I rush out of the classroom and rush to my locker, Cain following me, worrying that I would do something disastrous like break school property, hunt Shawn all around the school and kick him in the balls.