July 15, 1986
Dear Ziggy...
Today I finally realized something, something I may have tried to ignore for the last few years.
I am not the same boy you met that night.
My father told me that after sacrifices something changes inside you, it's part of the price, and I wanted to think that with me it wouldn't be the same, but it is.
I knew it from that day, yes, but I didn't want to admit it until now.
Eight years have passed and I've realized that I will always regret the hurt I caused, especially to you, who I know I will love for the rest of my life, but what's the point of continuing to mourn you? I will miss you forever, but I made the decision to give a name, I was young and too cowardly to stand up to my father, if I could change it I would, but I can't.
I have to learn to live with my decision.
I got tired, Ziggy, going out every day remembering what I did to be where I am is torture and I can't go on living like this.
You will always be the person I love the most, I will always miss you, but I will learn to live with the pain instead of continuing to drown in it.
I hope someday you will come to that conclusion too.
Love, Nick.
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