chapter one : not like wattpad

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I had planned , imagined , envisioned, written and thought of how I would lose my virginity.

I had read about sex , I had watched the movies and listened to music with all kind of sexual content. So I thought I knew what sex was . And I wanted it . I wanted to know that feeling of love all wattpad stories talked of.

I wanted to willing give myself to one who was going to love me with a fictional love . I wanted the hot watty sex . Just like in the books I read on this app I downloaded some years ago .

But none of that was ever going to be possible. From when I was 16 I was already a teens leader in my local assembly. Everyone looked up to me and expected the very best from me .

Because of this sex was only fictional for me. I could only dream and read about having that perfect first time with the one.

Oh before I forget am ash. Ashley for full . Am 19 years old
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