A Two Year Desire

Chapter Fifty One

In the morning adelina decided to go over to her mother she knew that even though she might have a cold heart she was wise. As she entered with puffy eyes her mother was stunned to see her daughter in her living room she wasn't sure she was going to see her daughter so soon for the stunt her father had pulled the night before.

"Darling" Her mother noticed her daughters features, they were all puffy and bland like she was exhausted of everything Adelina's mother's heart almost broke see her daughter like this.

Adelina never liked nicknames but the word 'Darling' brought too many memories some she wanted to remember others she wished so deeply to erase.

"Im done" Adelina dropped down to her knees only being three feet into the apartment she couldn't handle standing up even that was too tiring to do. "Adelina!" Her mother yelled dropping the same level as her daughter she didn't like being on the floor she found it disgusting and inhuman but the thought didn't even cross her mind. She took off the black heels she was wearing and hugged her.

"He doesn't love me" Adelina cried in her mothers arms very desperately needing a hug. "Oh sweetheart" She awed

"Im broken and I can't be loved not even by you" Her mother hadn't cried in years until those words came out of her daughters mouth she knew she was tough but she only did it because she knew she could take it. She was a huge fan of her daughter she looked up to her all she wanted was for her to succeed like she did not many women make it and she wanted to teach her daughter that she can just as she did. She grabs Adelina's chin making her look at her and not the floor.

"That is not true I love you more than life itself do you understand never ever think that I don't just because im hard on you does not mean I don't love you. You and your brother are my greatest treasures. Understand?" Adelina wipes her eyes nodding at her mother's words

"What happened" Her mother asked Adelina shrugged in response not knowing where to even start "I said it he doesn't love me. He lied. He slept with another girl the day we had our first date. He slept with girls when we had a fight. He lied." She exhaled.

"Cut his dick off" Her mother shrugged getting off the floor Adelina gave a small chuckle as she did the same but then realized her mother wasn't kidding when she saw her hold big pliers in her hands.

"Mom no that's Illegal"

Her mother shrugged not caring "Im rich for a reason" Adelina gave her another laugh "His dick is the reason this is going on am I right?" Adelina nods "Cut it off" She hands the pliers to her daughter picking up her glass of wine from earlier.

"As much as I wish I could do it we are done fully this time" She mother gives her a unsure look "What? Im being serious" Another look

"I love you sweetheart but you aren't" Adelina scoffs "I am plus even if I did go back again for being stupid he doesn't feel the way I do"

"How do you feel?"

"I love him or Im pretty sure I do"

"You do or You don't no in between"

"I do I really do. He makes me feel complete when he isn't being a jerk when he isn't sleeping around he's great to me he knows exactly what to say when we're together. When he's sleeping around though I hate him like I couldn't hate anyone else he can't be in a relationship he doesn't know how to. The first girl we weren't together but it was the next night. The girls in london where back when he left that one full summer we had a fight before that but our deal wasn't off yet but we weren't official or anything. The last one from last week Im not sure he went out instead of picking me up for our date he planned"

"Only because you guys weren't official doesn't mean he could do what he did. If he wasn't ready for a date he should've told you and contacted you before standing you up while he had his dick up someone. Any guy could not know how to be in a relationship but a decent guy could let you know instead of leading you on."

"Yeah but" Her mother cut her off by putting her index finger to sush her "No but's adelina he knew what he was doing all times he knew that sleeping with those girls would mean after he saw you the next days that boy knew what he was doing to you perfectly and you fell for it. He did like you and maybe deep down had love for you but had no idea how to express it so he tried other girls to see if they could match up with you he will not stop until he stops denying he does love you but by then he'll be too late" Adelina soaked up every single word her mother told her.

She thought to herself how it's going to be to be with someone who isn't him will it be the same? Or will she finally not be in pain because of them.

she just wanted to be loved, she herself has so much love to give she's tired of the shallow compliments that only touch the surface of what she appears to be or how she looks she longs for something deep.

Her skin felt bruised of his lust. Her soul hurt of the broken trust. He wanted nothing more than sex, therefore he's living relaxed. But when she falls asleep at night with a heavy heart, she feels numb because he has killed a part. A part of her's which was innocent and true, because no one she can love now, not a few. Her hands shiver, her lips flicker, she closes her eyes and wishes it was all a dream. Every time she blames him, she finds she mistakes in the process too. That she fell for her words, overlooking all his works. She wants to scream to the world, but also wish maybe she could be wrong, she asks herself to forget and heal, and accept it's not a big deal. And to him, if she could ask something it would just be one thing,

"Can my scars just get your love as a sling?"