SECRET

when I explode, I explode.

"Um the window?" I shrugged passing him the blunt that I was hogging.

His grin fell and his eyes widen from my response. He timidly reached and grabbed the blunt while examining my face for a hint of playfulness. 

I laughed at his concern. I mean we are on the 30th floor so I don't even know why he would take me even a little bit serious. That would be funny to watch tho. 

He let out a sharp exhale. "Man stop playing so much."

"You can walk out the front door silly. This is my crib. I'm not sneaking around for nobody." I got up off the toilet sit and reached down under the sink to grab my favorite body spray. 

He followed my hint and put out the blunt with the end of the lighter. I sprayed the mist all over my body and in the air around me. I didn't want to be disrespectful by going out there smelling like weed, even though I just finished telling myself this was my crib and I can do whatever I want in it. 

"You got this." he comforted me resting his large hands on my waist. I smiled up at him, letting his raspy voice soothe me in ways I never could imagine was possible. 

I stood on my tippy toes and placed a quick kiss on his lips. "Are you coming back later?" 

I really wanted to spend my whole day with just him. This random pop up has taken away the time I would have spent laying in bed next to him, appreciating the experience he and I had just shared. My eyes held a different type of glow when I look at him now, the butterflies playing in my stomach confirming just how special the event was to my existence. No man has ever made me fell this way, it was a blissfulness that came along with receiving a sexually pleasure from the person you love. It was like we were connected in a whole new way, my attachment to him grew into an obsession I knew I wouldn't be able to shake. 

"I'll be back for sure." He rasped in my ear. We released our hold on each other and I opened the bathroom door. Taking in a huge breathe, I grabbed my phone and headed towards my exit. I turned back to him once more as he also exited the bathroom. He mouthed the words 'I love you' and my heart damn near jumped out of my chest. 

"I love you more." I whispered before grabbing the handle of my bedroom door and pulling it open. 

I breathed out through my nose and walked out entering into the hallway that would lead my to my stress. 

I placed silent footsteps on the marble floor as I forced myself to the living room. I tried to walk as normal as possible even though the pain in between my thighs ached from this mornings events. Entering the large room, my eyes landed on Aaliyah who sat next to her mother, Sabrina, on the couch. Their eyes shot up at me and instantly a huge smile appeared on Sabrina's face.

"Is that my KarBear??" She shot up to her feet hurrying over to me standing still with my feet glued to the floor. 

"Hey Auntie Brina.." She pulled me into a hug before her name even got out my mouth. 

The hug felt surreal, like it was the first time we were meeting, the first time we were touching. I melted into the hug as I felt my emotions gather at the pit of my stomach. They quickly made their way up my body working to the brim of my eyelids. I swallowed the knot in my throat and pushed back the tears from falling with everything in me. 

She pulled away just as I blinked away the pain. 

"Oh my goodness you look so grown." She cooed as she examined me from head to toe. 

"Took you long enough to get out here." Aaliyah huffed from the couch.

I glared in her direction rolling my eyes. I motioned over to the ottoman sitting criss cross applesauce in front of her. "If you would have gave me a heads up that your mother was coming today I wold have been more punctual." There's no way she didn't know she was coming. She's been too busy not talking to me to have let me know ahead of time. If I did, I definitely wouldn't have been getting my back blown out all hours of the morning.