God i miss you...

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Arizona POV:

I'm heading home with Sofia from mark's house, he used to live across the hallway but now he is living with Lexie and their house isn't that close anymore...

As I turn the lights on Sofia run to her room leaving me there looking around and remembering of Callie...

That is the place where we first kiss after I got back from Africa

And that is where we danced on our first date, we had so much fun that night...

And- and on that couch... Callie was sitting on that couch when I told her I loved her for the first time...

I decide to go to the bathroom to have a shower, which I hadn't done for a week now...

(I used to shower at mark's place when he was at the hospital in those months when I didn't come here)

But as soon as I enter the shower I have a flashback of me and Callie kissing in it...

Couldn't stand it

I decide that I will go at mark's tomorrow and have it there

"Mama! What will we eat?" Sofia ask me from the living room as she turns on TV
"What about pizza?" I ask her knowing it's her favorite food
"Yei! I love pizza!" Sofia say smiling
"I know!" I say smiling

My god this reminds me of when Callie used to come back home with pizzas after her long shifts


"Mama?" Sofia approaches
"Yeah?" I ask  waiting for her to tell me something
"When is mommy coming back home?" She ask one of the few things I don't have an answer for
"I don't know baby..." I say holding my tears
"Well can I go see her at the hospital? I miss her very much" Sofia asks

What should I do? I can't tell her yes because she would see that Callie isn't awake! And I can't tell her no because- well what kind of monster would I be if I didn't take my daughter to see her sick dying mom!?
This is a problem

"Uhm... what about we ask dad and if he is okay with it I'll take you" I propose

I really hope mark will say no

I can't take Sofia there! I couldn't stand her eyes on Callie who is dying

"Ok! Tomorrow I'll ask dad" she says and I nod forcing a smile

*the next day*

Mark's POV:

I miss Callie

I miss her more than anything

And I feel like all of this is just my fault!

But I also think that Arizona was right yesterday

I do need to move on
so I set a date for the wedding

The 11th of June
Lexie is already looking for a dress and I am looking for a best man

Callie was supposed to be my best man but since she doesn't seam so willing to wake up before my wedding, I think Arizona will be my best man

I am asking her to be it today!

Oh speaking of which

(Norma: mark
Underlined: Arizona)

-hey! Good morning blondie! I was thinkin-

-mark...

She said that with a worried tone,

God did something happened to Callie?

-what!? What's wrong did something happened? Is Callie ok?

- Callie isn't okay but we knew that, the problem is that Sofia wants me to take her see her, anf I might have told her that if you were ok with it I'd have taken her... so now I kinda need you to tell her that you're not okay with that...

- so... let me get this straight, you want me to tell no to our daughter who wants to see her mom because...

-I can't! I can't take her to see Callie! I physically can't! It's too hard i can't even think about how Sofia will react to her mom being in coma I- I- can't

- I get it... I can't too... but we can't keep hiding it from her forever! I mean she will get suspicious when Callie won't be at my wedding!

- you decided to get married! When?

- the 11th of June...

-god! It's like in... *thinking*...

- 2 weeks

- I knew that!

- I don't doubt it...

-anyway I agree... we need to tell her... it's been a long time the more time passes the more will be unrealistic her waking
up...

- have you decided wether or not to pull the plug?

-you and I both know I am not gonna do it, I can't loose her!

- i know... but...

-there is no "but" I am not gonna unplug her, I am not strong enough

- ok... will you ever be?

-no... but Callie knew that when she put me as her attorney!

- fine...

-why- why did she put me? *starts to cry*

- 'cause she loved you!

- no she didn't...

- she did. No matter what you think- she loved you!

- she wouldn't have put me in this position...

- what do you mean?

- I don't want to make this choice... I know that I will hold on to her till the end... and- I am not sure it's the right thing to do...

- Callie was! As you said she knew who you where when she put you in charge of her health decision... she wanted you to hold on to her... she wanted you to be sure you did everything in your power to keep her alive as long as you could... she loved you!

There was a minute of silence
Than I heard Arizona sigh  as if she was so tired and devastated

-I- I- I really need to go... we'll talk later with Sofia...

- ok... see you later

*end of the phone call*

God! That was hard!

*at the end of the day*

Arizona's POV:

Callie didn't woke up today either...

Mark asked me to be his best man... I am flattered, really, but I feel like I stole that role...

We told Sofia the truth about Callie, she took it..., as expected, really badly!

I am not sure I can keep doing this... everything in this world reminds me of her, I can't do this anymore...

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