Twin Souls

⚘20⚘

"You were young, you can't beat yourself up. It's quite easy to overlook clear signs, especially when love is involved."

"If that's how love is, then I don't want to experience it," I said, shaking my head. "I've heard the saying "love is blind" but I didn't expect it to be that accurate!"

"Come on, Fleur, don't be like that."

"I will!" I exclaimed. "To think that I was actually..." I trailed off, mumbling before stopping myself.

No no no. Definitely not now.

"What?"

"Just forget it," I said in a tired voice. "Can we talk about something else?"

"Sure," he said and I placed my head on his lap.

We briefly talked about his experiences throughout the week before I ended up falling asleep.

end of dream state.

The next day wasn't any easier. I hurriedly did my morning routine and headed directly to the bus stop without seeing anyone. After fifteen minutes, my siblings joined me without uttering a word. From their faces I could tell they had a long night as well. I pulled them towards me and we shared a long, much needed hug. As much as I was broken, I had to be the strong one for all of us. They were too young to feel this way.

The school day passed by smoothly. With a poker face, I succeeded in having normal conversations without giving away my real state of mind. As the school day finally came to an end, I dreaded going back home. It wasn't even home anymore and I doubt it would ever be.

"Hey, Sanaa, we're going out for some ice cream," Nita said, referring to some of the girls in the class. "I was hoping you could come."

"Of course I'll join you."

I quickly texted my siblings and mother, telling them about my whereabouts and the time I would return. I spent the rest of the afternoon with the girls and came back around five-thirty.

"How was your day?" Mom asked as I placed my bag on a chair.

"It was okay. I'm just tired. What about yours?"

"I guess you could say the same," she said with a deep sigh. "I made lasagna," she added, referring to my favourite food. Mom was fond of making our favourite foods whenever she knew we were feeling down but I doubt that the delicious dish would make me feel better.

"I'm not really hungry. Perhaps later?"

"You've barely eaten, Sanaa. Please don't be like that."

For someone who always forced us to eat due to health / growth purposes, it was an odd sight to hear her speak in that tone. On cue, my stomach began to rumble and I knew I had to eat something that would carry me through the rest of the day.

" I guess I could take a bite or two," I weakly smiled as I glanced at my stomach.

I ate in silence as she paced around the room.

"Mom, please stop. You're stressing me out."

"I'm sorry, I just have a lot on my mind."