The Process of Loving Myself (Jungkook)

The Beginning

I stir in my bed not wanting to open my eyes but the bright ray of light that was penetrating through my curtains was forcing me to be taken away from my dream of going on a trip this summer even if summer is seven months away. After battling the sun for 5 minutes my alarm clock decided to team up with the sun and I finally had to wave the white flag of my sleep. Sitting up I slowly open my eyes looking at my surroundings, I first make eye contact with my study desk that had my outfit for today's laid out across the body of the chair. I let out a loud yawn and pushed off the warm embrace of my covers and slide my feet into my fluffy rabbit slippers my dad got me for my 21st birthday, I stretch my body to relieve the tension that I had on my body from sleeping in a weird position. It's not my fault that I like to sleep like I'm a fetus in my mother's womb, making my way to the bathroom I switch my fluffy slippers into the bathroom slippers I had to prevent them from getting wet from the water that's about to splash everywhere in the bathroom.

I turn on my shower setting the temperature to warm I hoped it's gonna be warm though and not fire hot, I strip naked the cold air prickling against my skin makes me quickly enter my shower and start on the morning ritual I lather my apple-scented shampoo and massage it onto my scalp that needed to be cleaned since I had to skip washing my hair to prevent it from getting too dry due to this cold weather. Washing of the soapy shampoo of my hair I replace its spot with conditioner to help make my hair become soft cause no one wants dry feeling hair, while I wait for the conditioner to do its magic I do the rest of my shower steps washing my face and scrubbing my body clean. After finishing everything I washed all of the things off my body with the warm water, I wring my hair to get the excess water off my hair so it's easier to blow dry later. I step out of the shower wrapping my body with my purple towel and my hair with another towel specifically used for my hair.

Proceeding to do the rest of my ritual I put on my sweats but left my hair in the towel so it doesn't smell like my breakfast that I was about to cook, I usually made the same thing every morning rice, some kind of main dishes today it was spam and rolled egg having the extra time I also decided to make tofu stew. The rest of my meal was completed by the side dishes my dad had given me when he visited me last week, I ate in silence and brushed my teeth since I hated the feeling of not brushing my teeth after I eat. I went back to my room and got ready for the day putting on my clothes that consisted of a plain black turtle neck and a pair of dark wash belled pants that were long enough to almost cover my sneakers that I'm gonna pair them with later, I sit in front of my mirror and look at myself to brainstorm on how I was gonna make myself look presentable today. In front of me were my dark brown eyes staring back at me, my tangled dyed brown hair and pale skin due to the fact we don't get that much sun here in Seoul in the wintertime. I start to work on detangling the monstrous lump of hair I had in front of me, blow drying my hair certainly helped with the process. 

After my hair I went and did my makeup, I didn't do much on my face I did some foundation and concealer to make everything on my face the same color and cover my dark circles to cover the fact that I stayed up late last night playing video games with my online friend seagull. I set my foundation and did some light contouring and blush so it looked like I wasn't dead I finished my makeup with a little eyeshadow with eyeliner and mascara finishing off my eye makeup and I tied it all together with a natural lip color tint. I stare at the finished project of my face smiling at myself I was happy with what I ended up with.

Grabbing my school bag I stuff my laptop and wallet inside and head for the door. I put on my thick puffy jacket for an extra layer and a purple scarf to finish my winter protection gear, slipping on my sneakers I bid my home goodbye and make my way to university. I spot a few boxes nearby my door as I walk out nearly tripping over one of the boxes must be a new neighbor hopefully, they aren't as loud as the last one. It only took about 10 minutes by bus to arrive at my university which I was thankful for since I found a cheap but close apartment in a decent area. Getting off the bus I make my way into the entrance of my university it takes about another 7 minutes to get to my first class of the day it was already 9 am and my lecture didn't start until 9: 47 am which gave me enough time to leisurely take my time to get to the lecture hall. I jump to the sound of screams behind me and I sigh my peaceful morning was ruined by the obnoxious and at the same time the scary sound of girls screaming for my very famous school campus star Jeon Jungkook, He was in the same department and year as me video arts sophomore year. The videos he makes are crazy good which I'm not gonna lie about the shots he takes are eye-catching and nice. Now he as a person doesn't match his videos he's eye-catching but his personality is cold, and hard to approach but he just naturally garners the attention of people and has tons of friends, or what I call them his brainless followers. I have this feeling that he was in a high position or even a king in his past life, he also had the personality of one, not the kind-hearted king though he had the biggest ego that goes beyond one's expectation just because he made a very captivating video that may or may have made me cry during high school when I first saw it. I remember the first time I met him was during an awards ceremony for the video contest we both participated in he won 1st place then two while I only got second place but that contest both helped us get in this school. I approached him that night and told him I was a big fan of his work and his response to me was