Handong x Reader - Break Up Song

💘Heartbreak Anthem💘

This ain't a heartbreak anthem..

You smile as you go to turn on the radio in your car. Many moons ago, this would've caused you so much pain and grief. You didn't really care anymore if that song came on the radio. It no longer had the power to ruin your day with a few soft melodies. You were once again reclaiming your life as your own, and you weren't going to let anyone hurt you anymore.

When I saw you in the club six months ago, I thought I was going to break down and cry just like I did mere moments before we arrived. Surprisingly, I stayed strong as you came over to greet me. We exchanged a few awkward words before you introduced your partner to me. I wished you luck on your relationship, and then I left you two to be together. My best friend came to comfort me as soon as they noticed what happened, but I didn't need that comfort. If you had moved on with your life, then I needed to as well. It didn't matter if I took baby steps or big strides, because I would survive just as I did before I met you.

As luck would have it, that song immediately started blasting on my radio. I smiled as I recalled the happy memories and let go of the sad ones.

Everyone feels sad at one time or another, and it's perfectly okay to. I just needed the strength to let go of something that wasn't healthy for me. The sadness over you was valid, but my attachment and desire for your love wasn't good for me at all. As soon as I started to let go, the sadness started to leave as well. People come and go in my life, and I'm glad that we spent those happy moments with each other.

I haven't met anyone new yet, and I don't think I'm ready to. I still need more time to process and let go of any remaining bad feelings, but we're slowly getting there. I feel better every day, and I hope that you are doing as well as I am. You seem so happy in your new relationship, Dongie, and I'm so happy for you. I really do wish you nothing but the best.

I roll down my car window and let the words to the song roll off of my tongue.

Who cares what other people think? This is the best I've felt in months, and I'm sure it'd bring a smile to your face if you saw me now. Thank you, Handong, for every sweet moment, but more so for making me stronger than I ever was before.

...And I ain't got no time to dwell on it.