being with someone who you truly hate {EDIT}

Tradgey once again

Cj POV

A car was about to hit but I felt Someone pushed me

I feel hard on the ground
I turned around and I saw roc laying on the ground life less

I felt my world came crashing down to me
My breathing started decreasing

Tears was running down my eyes it like a water fall

I rushed to him

Cj: roc baby can you hear me

???: omg I'm so sorry, I gonna call 911

I just shook my head yes

Call I could do is hold him and try to still if he still with me

This is all my fault

Why do I have to be so stupid

At the hospital ....

Me and the others were waiting to hear what the doctor got to say about roc

I just want my baby to be okay

Then Ray came in

Ray: cj

Cj: Ray

I'm not gonna lie I needed one of his hugs they were the best

He hold on to me tight

Ray: it's gonna be okay roc is strong(whisper to me)

I just cried

???: where's my baby

I turned around I saw a women in her 30s but I can say she is pretty and I'm guessing that roc mom

Prince: Ms. August clam down the doctor haven't came it

Ms A: sorry it's just I care about him so much

Prod: we know we all do care about him

Ms A: who is this young lady

Me: Ms. August I'm Cj roc girlfriend

Ms A: your the girl roc is so in love with

Then that made me smile

Ms A: roc wasn't lying when he said u have a beautiful smile

Me: thank you

Doctor: Chrestano August

Ms A : yes

Doc: well roc has fallen into a deep coma so it will take a long time for him to wake up

Me: how long

Doc: 8 months or more

On that means the day our child will be born

I have to do this whole pregnancy thing alone

Me: this is all my fault

Ms A: how sweetie

Me: well me and roc had an argument, so I got out the car and he followed me and told me to get back in the car but then a car was about to hit me but he pushed me out of the way

Ms A: honey it's not your fault, chres cares about you so much that he risked his life for yours and the baby

Me: yes mam

Then doctor told us we could see him

Me: roc if you could hear me I just want you to know that I'm not mad anymore, I just want you to be okay and wake up so you could our see child grow, I just want you to wake up for us

Then a tear came down my face

Me: just please wake up , I'm so sorry

Then I broke down crying

I just can't help it, it feels like its my fault