𝕺𝖈𝖊𝖆𝖓 𝖊𝖞𝖊𝖘 [Mikey]

𝙲𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚝𝚎𝚛 18

"Sorry I didn't assist," 

Mikey visited again, his eyes were still bloodshot. He didn't answer, didn't expect him to. Although it didn't make sense on why Mikey would visit if he had nothing to say. 

He stared at the picture frames displayed around the house. Specifically a family photo which of course, I wasn't in. Just yesterday I faced them upwards. My emotional state was better. There weren't any photos of me. They were all Naomie from when she was still alive.

"Noelle," 

He finally spoke after the awkward silence.

"Hm?" I studied his facial expressions trying to guess what he was trying to say. Was he angry? Sad?

"I want you to go on a ride with me. I'm having trouble deciding something." He said with a smile at the end. 

"Well that was anticlimactic." I let out a deep breath. "Why do I need to go? Wouldn't it be easier to decide in a different way without being distracted?"

"You make me feel calm. I need to be calm to think about it." He talked as if he was stating a fact. Maybe it was. 

"That's kinda illogical." I bit my lower lip slightly. How can a person make another person calm by just being in their presence?

"C'mon now Ocean Eyes! We haven't spent time together in a while. I miss you-"

"Okay okay I get it. Just don't finish that sentence. " I stick out my tongue in disgust to which he just laughs.

"I already feel calm."

"Whatever,"

"Here you go," Mikey hands me a black helmet.

I stare at it, not taking it from him.

"Are you a bad driver?"

"No. It's always best to take some precautions," he keeps forcing it on me.

"I don't want to wear it,"

"Just put it on,"

"No,"

...

We roam aimlessly feeling the breeze. Except not really because there is a huge fucking black helmet on my head. I really don't understand why he cares so much.

But still I smile.

He is silent throughout the whole ride thinking about his big decision. I wonder if it has anything to do with me. 

I'll take this chance to make my own decision too.

Should I stay or leave Mikey?

It's what has been on my mind. Ichinose really changed the perspective on everything. The conclusion was that I will end up hurting him either physically or emotionally. Both are also an option.

Mikey has gone through a lot of emotional obstacles and it's surprising that he's still holding on. How can he keep on smiling after what happened? I sure as hell would have killed myself.