✾𝐈'𝐥𝐥 𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐞 𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐒𝐭𝐨𝐫𝐲𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐞✾{Tokyorevengers}

✾Nineteen-Burdens✾

"What would you know..?" You mumbled, Tadashi tilting his head a bit. "For the last five years... I've tried so hard to change everything...to change this fucking world of fantasy and bullshit..! I've tried so hard regardless of having the body of a child and receiving a second chance to live again..!" You stated shakily with the feeling of anger and sadness all mixed together in one moment inside your room. Tadashi was confused by your words, but still continued to listen so that he could find a way to help you.

"For the past fucking five years! I acted the little angel everyone wanted me to be so I could get them to open up to me and touch their hearts and use them to my liking! I know it's bad, I know it's shitty of me to do that..!...... But I have no choice, dammit..!" Your grip on Tadashi's suit slowly decreased as you looked down on the ground hiding the pathetic and wimpy face you're starting to make, trying to save yourself from the humiliation.

Tadashi mumbled out your name, wanting you to listen to his comfort. "I was doing all of it for him..! I wanted him to be happy no matter what! I wanted him to walk on a flowery path with no thorns to come his way! I wanted him to experience a youth he wants without experiencing piercing pain in his heart..! But guess what that leads to..! All of my hard work..! All of my efforts to make the characters I love to avoid a tragic end were nothing!" You started crying out by the tip of your lungs, barely catching your breathing. You held the flaps of Tadashi's suit, gripping it by your left hand as if you're begging him to stay, but at the same time, you didn't want him to see this pathetic state of you. "...I wanted Shuji to be happy..." You mumbled.

You wanted to scream, shout and cry, but you didn't want to. Your heartaches, your mind going crazy from the overwhelming pain you hovered up from the past few days. The pain, the regrets, the lies, and most of all the guilt. The guilt of lying, the guilt of hiding, and the guilt of using someone like a toy. "I needed him alive..! So that the storyline would change and everything would go the way I wanted them to be..! I wanted Shuji to be happy! I wanted them to be happy! But NO! LIFE JUST KEEPS GETTING IN MY WAY!" You ranted, tears spilling down your eyes. You couldn't think straight, your heart beating at a fast rate and your mind going haywire. "I've done so much for five years..!"

"Why are they all going in vain..?! I got close to the first generation of Black Dragons to change Shinichiro's fate, including Izana's! I thought I finally avoided his death, but NO! It just made things worse! He died the day before Mikey's birthday! And Baji and Kazutora still ended up in jail for who knows how long! And..!" You took a second break to catch your breath to finish your rant. "I killed my own mother during the process...I took away the loving mother he had...." You sobbed into tears, you couldn't handle it anymore. The burden that was cast upon you because of your actions and attempts. Tadashi couldn't process it all, he was confused and was full of questions. But he knows it isn't the right time to ask you that.

Instead, he patted your head gently and embrace you in a hug trying to calm you down as you breathe in and out from all the ranting. He whispered to you to calm down then started patting your back gently. "...I don't understand what you have said until now, so I won't ask until you calm down." He assured you, "But if you ever need my help, then I'll be by your side to help you no matter what." He whispered to you as he tightens the hug. "You kept mentioning the word change. So if you ever want to change something...whether it would be fate or someone's life...then I'll do it along with you. You don't need to shoulder it on your own... cuz Ill be here by your side to share it with you..." He stated as he caressed your head while you placed your head on his shoulder. Your snob slowly dripping on his suit and tears falling down from your cheeks.

"𝐈'𝐦 𝐬𝐨𝐫𝐫𝐲 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐧𝐨𝐭𝐢𝐜𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐩𝐚𝐢𝐧 𝐬𝐨𝐨𝐧𝐞𝐫..."