ever since my love has gone away,
every single thing has turned to gray,
still I don't wanna say goodbye'cause I could still feel you
you took my heart with you
and I can't love without you,
all I need is your love➳
heeseung p.o.v
one month earlier.
"and that's it! good job everyone!" our manager clapped his hands and I immediately plopped down onto the floor leaning on the mirror. I grabbed my phone and opened my messages, finding my way to your contact.
I sighed, seeing the message above my keyboard.
"this account has been deleted."
nonetheless, I started typing.
heeseungbae is typing...
I'm sorry. I really am. but I hope that you're proud of where I got. I will never forget you, y/n. even if we couldn't meet in person, I could feel every word you send to me through the screen. truthfully, I miss you. I keep on thinking about you - how much I would've hurt you, how much I made you go through - it's making me hurt too. but I want you to know that I've been suffering these past months too, knowing that I'm just leaving you behind. but I had to. I needed to.
even if it took me some time to type everything out, I slowly backspaced everything and started typing something else.
heeseungbae is typing...
and maybe there's something I want to tell you. it made me really rethink my decision on debuting. I..I have feelings for you. it made it harder for me to let go. and it's foolish, I know. I'm an idiot for not telling you earlier. when I had the time. but it would just make things worse for us. I'm sorry.
and I erased it all again.
you wouldn't receive it anyways.
"heeseung." I turned my phone off and I looked up at our manager with a smile. "hyung, what is it?"
"you know you're risking your career for that girl, right?"
I gulped. I looked away at the floor for a second before nodding. "I very much do."
"well, if she was able to delete her account and move on, then maybe you should too-
"I can't just move on like that." I raised my voice at him but looked down in embarrassment afterwards. "I'm sorry."
I sighed deeply, feeling his hand pat my shoulder. "I'm just saying this because I want you to focus on your job as an idol. you were able to get this far and I'm sure you can push it a little farther too."
he said before walking away, walking out of the room. I looked down at my legs and shut my eyes, stopping my tears from falling.
I was able to get this far.
but why can't I just let it go and live my life?
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LOVE GOES. l.hs
Fanfiction"you'll always be in my heart." "and you'll always be in mine." sequel to come back. 이희승 | lee heeseung © yeoosrii 2021