Bullied

Chapter 12

'Jack G, Taylor, Cam,

I dont know how to start this letter. Thanks for apologizing the other day it meant a lot and don't think I'm doing this because you guys I'm not! If anything I'm doing this because of all the hate I've been getting and Carter! I have had a lifetime of being bullied and I have thought of doing this plenty of time before but I didn't. I had to stay strong but I cant anymore. I self harmed for about 4 months, I stopped 2 weeks ago. I do really love you guys and I will forever but I need to do this Ive made everyone's lifes miserable. ( Cam, I hope you get to be in a movie someday, you deserve the best and don't let anyone stop you from doing it. Love you ) ( Jack, you need to start singing in public you are amazing and you need to let people here your voice its beautiful, love you ) ( Taylor, keep doing what your doing and do something crazy and unexpected like make a song travel the world in a car or something, keep being crazy. Love you ) I guess this is goodbye, good luck in the future and I love you all❤. Ellie x'

'Aaron, Matt, Shawn,

You three have been so nice to me over the past week and I cant thank you enough. None of you ever hit me or called me names and that made me feel good inside. I'm sorry but I have to do this, I make everyone's lives miserable, I drag you all into my problems and its not fair. I'm not doing this because of any of you guys, its because of all the hate and Carter. For a long time I cut. For about 4 months but I stopped about 2 weeks ago because i thought my life was getting better but obviously not. ( Aaron, we never really spoke but you made me feel happy, everytime I would look at you it would make me smile. Please keep doing what your doing it makes a whole lot of difference in peoples lives. Love you ) ( Matt, you were always the one o was least scared of, you used to stand out of the way not wanting to get involved with hitting me. Keep making videos, I've seen so many people say how much they help them so carry on please. Love you. ) ( Shawn, you were the first one to say sorry and I cant thank you enough. If you didn't come back for me that one day I would have stayed there all night. Keep singing and do something with it, make an album one day please?. Love you ) Good Luck to you all in the future and I hope everything goes well. I guess this is goodbye forever. Love you all so much and I appreciate everything you have done for me❤.

'Nash and Izzie,

Thank you Izzie for being so nice to me on that one day when you saw the boys beating me up, you were my only girlfriend and I cant thank you enough for giving me time. Shawn is very lucky to have you, you are beautiful and Shawn really loves you. Please have 385749 kids because they would be gorgeous. Nash, we never really spoke and I regret not talking to you. You didn't hurt me as much as the others did. I actually really liked you and if we ever started talking we could have become the best of friends but its too late I guess, the hate has got too much and Carter just made life unbearable. Please go get yourself in a movie or something you are really good at acting. You both deserve the best and I love you guys. If this is a bit smudged its because I've been crying all the way through writing this. P.S I always thought you were the hottest one Nash after Jack J. Love youu❤ Ellie x'

'Jack,

This letter is probably going to be the second hardest to write. You made me feel so safe, when I needed someone to make me feel better you would be there for me. You looked after me so much that one night and I really thank you for that. Even though I was throwing up every five minutes you still were there holding my hair back. The other night when you made me flush my blade down the toilet made me feel happy like it was a fresh start on life but i guess its not. I'm not doing this because of any if the boys so please don't go hitting anyone. It was down to all the hate and Carter. Please can you go on all my social media and deactivate every account also please go onto my phone and look at all the messages that cater sent to me and show everybody else. You know my password but if not its 2403, your birthday. When we kissed it was one of the best kisses off my life and I felt so many fireworks with that one kiss. Everytime I saw you I would smile and Everytime we would get shipped together I would have to stop myself from wishing jellie could be real. Please get yourself a girlfriend and make sure she treats you right, you deserve the best and only the best. Also get yourself and Jack a record label please and start singing/rapping. I love you jack and I always will. I actually mean I love you. Ellie x P.S your jumper is in your suitcase❤

'Jacob,

I have no clue where to start you are the bestest friend I could ever ask for, we have been best friends for about 7 years. I cant believe someone put up with me for that long. I have so many good memories like how we used to go camping in your back garden and we used to pretend that evil Egyptian mummies were coming after us Or how we used to play hide and seek in your huge mansion and one time I got stuck in the cellar and the firemen had to come and break the door down to get me out. Remember when we were doing homework that one time and we accidently on purpose kissed? Because I do, you were my first kiss. I'm not doing this because of any of the boys so please please don't go and hurt anyone. I'm doing it because the hate got unbearable and i had no choice. Please do something with your singing it is one of the best voices I've ever heard. You are the best friend I have ever had. This is by far the hardest letter I have had too write, I love you to the moon and back J❤❤ love Elliexx P.S I just confessed my love for Jack

Ellies POV

I've finished writing the letters, I cried so much while doing it. My phone had gone off about another 30 times. It was know 12:00. I closed each letter up and wrote there names on it and placed them on the bed. I went to the bathroom and opened the cupboard and got put my depression tablets and swallowed the whole tub and fell to the ground with the biggest crash ever. The door swung open. " ELLIE WHAT HAVE YOU DONE?? " a voice said. I think it was jack. Then everything went black.

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I cried so much writing this omfg😭

This is so sad.

My twitter is @Parxdisejacob if you want to ask me anything😊

I hope I didnt upset any of you guys

Elliexx