'Di Madama

• Last Chapter (Part Two) •

His kisses went back north. He stopped when he was already facing me again. "I love you. You feel that, right?"

"I do," I said.

"I love you," he said as he kissed me again.

"I love you," he said again before he finally thrusted against me.

And in this moment, all I could remember was the question he asked me the night we met again for the first time... because yes, Rean, sex on the beach is good.

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"Thank you," I told him. Pauwi na kami ngayon mula Siargao. Sobrang na-enjoy ko 'yung trip namin at celebration namin. We even got matching tattoos. I really enjoyed doing some of my firsts with him and I hope he's also my last too. I hope to be with him until the end.

I never wished for anything in my life.

And now, if I had one wish, I wish to be with him forever.

I wish he's really the one for me.

I wish he's my end game.

I wish he's the one I'd marry someday.

And I didn't realize that I had so many wishes until now. Too many that I feel like it's too much to ask for him, because he's the best. He's one in a million. He's everything anyone could ever ask for... and he's mine.

And you know how people would always say that when you're so happy, prepare for the storm that's about to come?

That's true.

Because mine just looked at me in the eye.

Nandito ako ngayon sa bahay ni Lolo. Nagulat ako nang makita ko siyang naghihintay sa loob. He can't be here. Pupuntahan ako ni Rean dito.

"A-anong ginagawa mo dito?" I asked as I took a step backward.

"So this is where you bring your whore, huh?" he asked as he took a step forward.

Umiling ako. "P-please, RR. Tigilan mo na ako-"

"Tigilan?" he cut me off as he took another step forward towards me. "I told you, Anya. You're mine. All mine. You could never get away from me."

"I h-have a boyfriend-"

"What did you say?" tanong niya at mabilis nang lumapit sa akin ngayon. Napaatras ako hanggang sa naramdaman ko na ang lamig ng dingding sa likuran ko. "Boyfriend?"

Pakiramdam ko hindi ako makahinga.

"I'm your boyfriend, Anya."

Tinulak niya ako papunta sa upuan.

"I'm your boyfriend!"

Sisigaw na sana ako nang kaagad niyang takpan ang bibig ko. "You can scream all you want, fight me all you want, just don't get mad at me when you see your whore's cold and lifeless body one day."

Para akong nanlamig.

Fuck you.

Fuck you!

I want to scream at him.

I want to fight him.

But I was the weaker person.

In the end, I'd always lose.

And as he took me, the more I pity myself.

Siguro nga masama akong tao noong una kong buhay, kaya ako pinaparusahan ng ganito. Kaya nararanasan ko ang lahat ng 'to. Pero hindi ba talaga matatapos ang pagdurusa? Hindi ba talaga magwawakas ang mga paghihirap ko?