Lapse (Cordelia Goode x Reader Story)

You'll be okay, I promise...

This chapter will contain talks of self harm and suicide attempts, if you are triggered easily I do not recommend reading this. Stay Safe!

As I lock the bathroom door behind me, I slide down on the cold tiles and just sob uncontrollably. Why can't I just talk to her? She just wants to help but hear I am treating her like shit.

You then hear a soft knock on the door.

Dammit, I really can't get two seconds to myself...

Y/N: "What do you want..."

Cordelia: "Can you open the door kiddo?"

I can't run anymore, I slowly open the door to be meet with her brown eyes. She's beautiful...

Cordelia: "You think I was gonna let you go that easy?" she says with a comforting smile

Y/N: "Why do you care..."

Cordelia grabs your face so you're eyes lock

Cordelia: "Because you mean a lot to me and I need you..."

I couldn't form any words and Delia noticed as she pulled me into her arms once again.

I wanted to stay here forever.

Cordelia: "I love you..." she says as she strokes your hair behind your ear

Y/N: "I-I love you too Delia..."

Cordelia: "I know it's hard hun but we need to talk."

Y/N: "I know."

We both head upstairs, Cordelia not letting my hand go for a second. 

Cordelia sat on my bed patting her hand for me to sit next to her.

Cordelia: "Take your time Y/N..."

Y/N: "I'm so sorry I put you through all this Cordelia."

Cordelia: "Hey, it's my job to take care of you, I knew coming into this relationship it would be hard."

Y/N: "I just wanted to stop all this pain I had on me..."

Cordelia: "Look at me" she grabs my chin again facing towards her

Cordelia: "I understand how you feel, I've gone through the same feelings you are having..."

How could someone so perfect feel like me? Feel so hopeless.

Cordelia: "I just don't know how you fell so low again, you were doing so good."

Y/N: "I don't know either...it all just happened so fast" I choke out while tears are streaming down my face. 

Y/N: "Did you mean what you said earlier?"

Cordelia: "What do you mean?"

Y/N: "Thats you love me..."

Cordelia: "Of course" she grabs your hand which calms you a bit

Y/N: "Why?"

Cordelia: "Because you are a beautiful and kind person Y/N"

"I don't deserve you.." I say as I lay my head in her lap

Before Cordelia can say anything you fall right asleep and she just plays with your hair for a bit.