There was a boy And all he couldn't do
All those fears Make him (to) disappear
'Til the time he came back Totally in black
And what his brain? Blank...
All those fears Thoughts of his peers
He made 'self believe 'd He's hated Don't think---we?
All-all sad There he sat
He, all-quiet Then he thought
With face straight "Should I quit?"
As he thought There he stood
In the mirror "Who I lied?"
On the floor Body poor
Full of shivers Cried a river
Eyes sore, dry they are "Who am I, anymore?"
Too much stubborn Maybe selfish
Fake smile, flash in eyes
Grin like fox "Am I 'n box?"
Half turn, - to the smile Eye-roll, 'World is mine'
All he said was: "Ain't got problem, yeee(a)h!"
But he knew...
FEAR INC.
Fear of being used Or left alone
Behind; there Like a ghost
No care, or rush No gain, nor loss
Just there No goals
Curse or gift? How I'd know
If it were, for now, To tell, then well,
You must be The one to be
The one to read The one to plead
And carve Those tears
Of sand and red Eyes, of dread
What should be What should we
We'd be Cries, Cassandra, Curse
No life's course What is worse -
- To never find, Or (to) never loose?
CAN'T TELL RIGHT
Can feel, can't tell
Can read, can't send
Lobes of globes -and- Globes of lobes
Blobs of noise -and- Noise of Chaos
Only letters, only words
Only matter, and All atoms
Where were waves
Waves' ways we've been
All the things we are never to see
Those we see are only phases
And only if the frame is paused
Papers crumble, corrupt temple(s),
Tech' on fire - and we? - Lie
There's "Me" - where we
Killed each other, surplus layer
Layers - liars, are all those
Agree upon, wearing masks
Always faking, telling lies
To soothe pain, (to)-breath easily,
to enjoy, to accept
We're numbed already
All reddy; pretend
Love that's latent
I know; too little
I see; (just) 'ou shadows
I feel; only needle
Need; let truth be,
Be; and that's just*
*enough, picture, must, message, !, it/all
MY BARRICADES
I hate you not because you are different,
But because of (being) same (as me).
What I wanted, used to be
You reminds me (of) Me.
All things denied, all those buried
Misery cries, walls of lies
In my tower
You, my lover
Stood (down) there
Or I saw
Just a shadow
What I want'd
All of tommorows
Nothing left
The part aint set
Those memories, all violet
Never happened, all was dream
Nothing, just nightterror's scream
You are just a fantasy
For me; just an extasy.
To fill my void,
To feel the cold
Or something, any! Of them all
Emotions I feared before
Lived in denial,
No thing - no~real
Fear of pain, or pain of/oh(,) none
Eternal sadness,
Or rather nothing(,) at all?...
