The Scholarship || DREAMNOTFOUND

Chapter 5 (Dream) ✔︎

i looked in his room—
kitchen—
living room—
my own room—
and the balcony—
but there was no sign of him

my phone began to vibrate in my coat pocket, as i pulled it out, i saw that i had a bunch of messages from sapnap

" dude! wtf! "
" why did you just turn and run?!"
" what's going on?! "
" call me when you see these "
i had over 15 missed calls, my finger hovers over the call option on my screen for what seems like an eternity, until i saw that sapnap was already calling me again
my finger presses the green accept button and i press the speaker button so i can hear him without wetting my screen from the rain

" hello? Dream?! "

" yeah, hey man i'm sorry i just— i don't know what came over me "

" dude you sprinted like if george was gonna die, what the hell happened, what's going on? "

i paused for a moment, now was my chance to understand everything that has been going on the week— i took a deep breathe in and began to speak

" no.. YOU tell me what happened and what's going on!—
and don't act like you don't know cause you do sapnap! "
at first.. the other line was silent for what seemed like forever
until finally— i hear a sigh come from the phone speaker

" there's not that much to say dream, but fine.. about two weeks before you came to london—
george confessed that he liked me— "

" as in?— "

" yeah, as in MORE than just a friend..
i told him that i couldn't accept his feelings—
and he didn't say anything to my answer, instead he just left and ignored everyone for three days straight—
at one point i went to visit him in the dorm a couple of days before you came to london—
he looked like crap— but i still cared for him as a friend and i wanted to help him feel better "
my heart ached just by listening to his words, it almost felt like i could feel what.. george was feeling in that moment

" george wanted to ignore me but i didn't let him—
after i tried to talk to him— the only thing he said to me was—
" why can't you accept me.. just tell me honestly "
so.. i told him why— and i told him that my mind wouldn't change—
after that he just smiled and apologized for acting rudely—
we hugged.. and then everything went back to normal, he accepted my hugs, accepted my invites to hang out—
and then you came to London "
for a minute— i swear none of it made any sense, that still didn't explain why george dislikes me and was treating me this way
sapnap says my name one more time "Dream?"
and that's when it hit me—

" sapnap, were you talking about me? to george and the others at any point before i came here? "

" huh?, well yeah i was—
i was excited that i could finally see my best friend after a year, but what does that have to do with this? "
my lips pressed into a thin line as i held back what i wanted to say to him
" i just— had a hunch, "

" what do you mean? "

" like i said— i had a hunch, but you telling me this makes me feel dumb for even thinking about it and i'd rather not say what it was ha ha..."
i rub my neck with my hand as i gulped the lump i had built up in my throat, i just lied to my best friend for the first time