jaylor oneshots

the Archer

hii so basically this shot will be kinda associated w song "the archer" :))

*btw i rly haven't had panic or anxiety attack so idrk what it's like, imma just write what i heard about it*
kinda inspired by @ 19xzy89

Taylor's pov
i woke up midnight, i looked at clock on my nightstand. 2am. great, i try to sleep again but i fail immediately, my mind is spinning, spiraling, i start to think bout the man who's lying next to me, sleeping peacefully. joe. the love of my life, the only reason im here now.

i start to think what if he doesn't love me? what if he uses me and will leave me after he gets what he wants?
 
No taylor stop. he loves you. but still as i try to clear my mind i get more anxious and can't breath properly, i immediately get out of the bed gasping for air, and trying to calm down. fail. my mind runs to that thoughts.
   he doesn't love me, he's gonna leave me anyways like everyone else, he uses me.
  i search for his dark side but can't find a one. it's like he's special, not like others, maybe his love is true but who knows, i just wish i could have a normal life, no paparazzi, no media so i could have a NORMAL relationship like others but no.
  out of these thoughts i start pacing in room like a ghost, feeling like to faint in any moment, i start to sob, trying to be quiet so i won't wake joe and i try to get some air

Joe's pov
i get awaken by some sobs, i look at clock 2:30 am, i look over on the other side of bed  where's taylor? then i notice someone walking around the room, sobbing, shaking, i realize what has happened and immediately get up running over taylor and wrapping my arms around her, i start rubbing her back and whispering some encouraging words into her ear.

taylor's pov
i feel Joe's arms around my body and i start sobbing louder, shaking uncontrollably.
"shh love breath with me okay?" he says and takes deep breaths in and out
i try to mimic his breath and in 5 minutes i can breath properly and im not shaking that much again, tears are streaming down my face and i try to think bout warmth of his body and take comfort in his arms, i calm down soon. he's been so understanding also and im so greatful for that.
"help me hold on to you" i say out of nowhere
"i already do" he says in his soft tone.
"who could stay? who could?"
"i could stay" he says.
i smile slightly. we stand there for a few minutes until he speaks up: "do u wanna talk bout it or sleep now tay? if u want to we can talk about it tomorrow"
aww he's so sweet i love him
"let's sleep" i whisper and we get on bed, i cuddle against his chest, finally calmed down and i fall asleep immediately.

hiiii so this was my first shot, hope u will like it:) sorry if i made any mistakes, love ya'll<3