Dear Diary|| Loki x Fem!Reader.|| Slow Updates

24. Flow

Songs:

-Coraline by Maneskin

-The World is Ugly by My Chemical Romance

-Lead Me Out of the Dark by Crown The Empire

-Stay With Me by Sam Smith

TW: allusion to sensitive topic towards the end. I'll put a tw right before and the end so you'll be able to skip the paragraph if necessary. Reader discretion is advised.

You woke up in your bed, the warm blanket spread and tucked in across your body. A delicate flowery scent filling the room as you looked around. A candle lit on the nightstand where Wuthering Heights was placed next to your robe, until you realized you were dressed in something softer and bigger than usual.

Confused you sat up, looking at the robe you were wearing. It looked exactly like the other one you had everyday, but longer and with a silkier material. The sleeves were folded meticulously and, in the in the hem of the placket, a simple 'L' elegantly embroidered in golden. 

You remember falling asleep on the bench while reading. Someone must have brought you back here, and the fist name that crossed your head was Loki's. Nobody would have changed your clothes before putting you to bed, and moreover nobody goes in there most of the times, that's exactly why you and Loki love to hang out there. It's just peaceful.

Almost as an instinct you pulled up the robe burying your head in it, the delicate smell of mint and lilac mixed with sweat instantly hit and calmed you. He had worn this robe and for whatever reason he decided it was ok to put it on you, especially after disappearing for God knows what reason.

You just couldn't wrap your head around it, it's like following an infinite path of confusion. One day he was distant, the other he would literally take care of you. One day he was isolating completely, the other one he was sharing his life with you. One day he was kissing you, the following he completely disappeared.

You repeated yourself Thor's words. "He might have issues sorting his feelings"  which would be fair for what he has shown you, but disappearing was not a solution either.

You got out of bed reluctantly, you took off the robe and headed in the bathroom for a warm shower to ease your distress. You didn't have any plans until 2 pm, so you took it slow. You decided to wear a pair of leggings and a shirt and. On top of that, you kept the robe. First of all it started to get cold since winter was on it's way. Second of all it reassured you.

You spent the morning in the garden reading again, it comforted you especially since the ups and downs of the past days. Somewhat it helped you know that Loki was ok. Maybe Thor was right and he just has to deal with his feelings.

Loki himself mentioned it to you the morning after he barged in your room in tears. He was having issues understanding how and why he felt, as he said, the way he felt. He never got deep down into what he was referring at, as he was not ready for it.

It was still a surreal sensation for you, you were well aware at this point that he hated being seen frail, yet you saw bits of his past, you saw him cry, which meant he cared enough to show himself, which still gave you hope.

Every now and then you would admire the beauty of the garden: the tall trees, colorful flowers decorating the whole floor, sometimes wondering how Tony was able to make this happen, what kind of technology he would be using to keep this little heaven in the tower. It was so astonishing for you.

Around noon you decided to make your way back downstairs to have some food. You quietly walked through the plants and bushes, looking around you. You could spot some good hiding point you could use during training, creating some more possibilities to try and trick Loki.