I'm so terrified of my period showing up. On the 14th, I was so certain from the feeling of period cramps in my stomach that it was here... I lay on the bed on the verge of tears avoiding going to the toilet until I absolutely had to, fully aware I could be bleeding everywhere but just not wanting to acknowledge the possibility.
I went. I didn't even take my phone, thinking I'd be crying for a bit once I saw the dreaded blood.
Yet my period didn't show. It still hasn't. I've had some exhaustion and needed a nap, but to nap I required a heat pack on my lower back to help with the cramps and back pain. I was so certain I was out. So, very, very certain.
I also thought it was due today. But now I've realised it could, by some stretch, be due some time between now and, at the latest, 8pm on the 17th. So I've got another couple days of hell and constant panic attacks every time I got to the loo.
Another TMI thing that not many people would be interested in, but may or may not help in retrospect at determining pregnancy symptoms, is 'period poo'. Every time I'm on my period, and I a weird series of bowel movements where I appear to be constipated, but it's like my body is trying to clear everything out (forgetting that it just needs to contract my uterus and clear out my endometrium, not everything possible), so I have a specific bowel movement I call my 'period poo'. And I had that tonight (the 14th). But that usually comes on day 1 of my period, it's not usual that it shows up before my period does.
Urgh. Just Urgh. Urgh urgh urgh urgh urgh.
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