Brennifer: My first true love❤️

Chapter 121: What's happening with us?

"Why are we struggling so much?" Again, I don't know how to answer that question

"Again, I don't know"

"You don't know Brad? How can you not know? You're the one that's been doing reckless things lately. With the whole car and bike situation-"

"Jen, don't start that again"

"Oh I am going to start it again, that was the sole reason for this argument. I don't know if I can do this anymore, I really don't Brad but I really want to try... I want our marriage to succeed... I need our marriage to succeed. I don't feel that you look at me the same anymore and I'm not questioning your love for me, but it's hard to be with someone who doesn't see things the same way that I do. I don't want a divorce Brad, I really don't, I just said that out of anger. I love you more than anything on this planet... okay, maybe not more than our children but I love you endlessly. We can work through this right? Because I-"

"Jen, I- I- I um, I've been thinking about what you were saying last night and I know I've been a crappy husband lately but, and I can't believe I'm about to say this, but maybe a separation is a good idea for us" As soon as he says this, Jens face drop, like she's been hit with the worst news in the world... she has been hit with the worst news in the world

"Y- you w- w- what?" She stutters her words out of complete shock. Yes, maybe she thought about it last night, but in no way did she actually mean it

"I think it would be best for us"

"Are you actually saying this right now? Am- am I hearing you right? You want a fucking separation?"

"Jen, I- I don't want this either but baby-"

"DON'T call me baby! You lost the right to that about five seconds ago"

"I don't want to hurt you Jen, I really don't"

"Well you just did"

She gets up with her hands on the back of her head and starts to pace around the room, not knowing what to do or say next, when suddenly she runs up the stairs and slams the door to their bedroom. From downstairs, Brad can hear crashing and banging but he doesn't know if he should go up there or to just leave her. Ultimately he decides to leave her, leave her to calm down. About twenty minutes later, she comes back downstairs with two suitcases and her handbag.

"What are you doing?"

"Packing some more of my clothes and some of the kids' clothes to take back over Courteney's"

"Why are you doing that?"

"SINCE YOU JUST FUCKING TOLD ME YOU WANT A SEPARATION! DID YOU REALLY THINK I'D STAY HERE WITH YOU?.." She forces herself to stop talking for a moment, to calm down before carrying on

"...My fathers dropping the kids to Courteney's later and they'll stay with me. You can pick them up tomorrow if you want to, but then you bring them back there, or if they want to stay with you tomorrow night, that's fine too but I need Emery back since he's still breastfeeding during the night. I'm not going to stay in a house where I'm not wanted" And with that, she picks up Norman, opens the front door and slams it shut

"FUCKKKKK" Brad screams as he punches the couch

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(Jen's P.O.V)

I'm back at Courteney's with everything I'm going to need until I find a place of my own. I can't believe he wants to separate, it's just as bad as a fucking divorce. He might as well have just slit my throat, that would've hurt less than what's just happened.

"Jen, are you-?"

"Don't... I need to be alone"

"MOMMY" Ophelia comes running up to me. I didn't realise the time

"Hey baby" I pick her up, cuddling her so tightly trying not to show her I'm crying

"You sad mommy?"

"No, mommy's not sad sweetheart"

"You cwying"

"I'm not crying baby, mommy's fine"

"Ophelia, let's go back to play out the garden with Uncle David" Courteney takes her back, letting me run into my room with tears steaming down my face

I throw my handbag on the floor along with my suitcase before falling onto the bed, sobbing into the pillows.

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(Courteney's P.O.V)

"Honey, could you watch these for a moment, Jens back and I'm going to see if she's okay" I leave the kids with David whilst I go to Jens room. I don't know if she'll want to see me, but I knock just in case

"Jen?"

"What?" I can tell by her voice that she's crying

"Can I come in?" 

"Whatever" I walk into her room to see her face down on the bed, her body going up and down as she's crying hysterically

"Honey, what happened?" I don't know if that was the smartest thing to say, considering she's crying so hard right now but I don't know what else to do

"Brad... he- he wants a s- separation" She can barely get her words out

"What?"

"Yep, you heard me right. He doesn't want me anymore. He wants a FUCKING SEPARATION" She starts screaming out of anger, frustration and emotion

"Come here, come here Jen" I wrap my arms so tightly around her as she practically screams into my neck, her body shaking, letting out every single emotion that's inside of her

"Shh... shh... shh. I know nothing I'll say right now will be beneficial to you but I just want to know that David and I are here for you and the children. Stay here for as long as you need to okay? I want to be able to support you as much as I can"

"If you want to support me, can you leave me alone? Please Court. I don't want to see anyone right now. Please"

"Okay, but-"

"But if any of my children need me, then of course bring them in but please try to keep them for as long as you can until I get my shit together"

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(Brad's P.O.V)

And she left, just like that. I mean, I don't blame her but I didn't expect her to react like that. I thought that that's what she would've wanted. I know I've hurt her, I've hurt her so bad. I don't know what our future will hold but I do know that we will continue to be the best parents to our children as we possibly can.