Chapter 1
After I finished eating lunch, Clarice, Carina and I went to sit at our favourite spot in the shade keeping ourselves from the blazing sun. We always sat there when we wanted to talk about stuff going on in our lives, I always came with them even though I hardly ever had anything to talk about. “So how are things with Joel now?” Clarice asked Carina.
“Ahh, he’s just being the same old prick he’s always been, he tells me he likes me and he still aint even asked me out” She kissed her teeth.
“Don’t worry babe, that’s the way Harry was with me”
“And you know what’s worse? He asked me to give him head the other day! What does he take me for?” As soon as Carina said that my mouth dropped open with shock and so did Clarice’s. Wow if that was what having a boy ‘like’ you was all about then I think I’d prefer looking immature and younger than my age. I soon zoned out of the conversation leaving them to complain about their boy troubles.
My friends were so much prettier than I was; they got all the boys’ attention. Even though they were like my closest friends I couldn’t help but be jealous of them. Carina was a pretty mixed raced girl who was quarter Colombian, quarter Italian and half Jamaican. Yup, she looked as exotic as she sounded, she was tall, had beautiful curly hair that she hated and hazel eyes which guys always got lost in. Oh and there was Clarice (Reece) who’s half Albanian and half English, she had long hair which went just past her shoulders and was quite tall too. She had a face that vogue models would die for. And there was me. The boring black girl, I’d say what country I was from but to be honest I didn’t know, anyway that’s another story to tell. I had no attractive physical features, I was medium height, and practically as flat as a sheet of paper. Sometimes I actually wondered why they hung out with me because when I was with them I stuck out like a sore thumb. Sometimes I wondered, if one day I’d be as attractive as them and boys would begin notice me, but I strongly doubted it.
Clarice nudged me back into reality, “WHAT THE HELL MAN!” I screwed her. “Gosh, look!” she whispered as she jerked her head slightly to the front of her and I looked. It was Miguel. All of a sudden there were butterflies in my stomach. He was walking towards us, I started getting really happy. Miguel was a boy who was half Filipino and half Spanish and my god was he beautiful, he was amazingly tall and had lovely dark eyes and defined cheekbones with lovely dark brown hair which was effortlessly perfect. When he reached us, he flashed a breath-taking smile and I couldn’t help but let out a small smile. “Ey Car, don’t scare him off” Clarice laughed as she whispered to me.
“Hi Miguel, you alright?” Carina said “Yeh b, I’m good” he said as he hugged her. I felt a bit of jealousy inside me even though they were just friends, then he later went to hug Clarice and after said a friendly hi to me. I felt a little out of place and sad but we didn’t really talk to each other that much so I couldn’t really complain. But to be honest in a way I was happy he acknowledged my presence. At least he knew that I existed.
“So what’s good?” Miguel said as he sat down in the empty space between me and Reece. Oh Lord, I thought to myself as my heartbeat increased. “Mm, nothing really” Carina and Reece said and I just sat there shyly like an idiot.
“So, what brought you here, I know you didn’t just come to jam” Reece said. This girl was so straight forward.
“So I’m not allowed to jam with my favourite girls yeah” he said while laughing “Alright, I came to talk about some girl I’ve had my eye on for a while” I instantly had a little hope, hoping that he was talking about me.
“Is that Miguel yeah! What’s her name?” Reece said
“Ayesha, you know the one in your form class” My hope disappeared as quickly as it came. I felt a bit upset, but what could I do? It wasn’t like we were in a relationship or something.
“Oh...” I guess Reece was as disappointed about it as I was.
“So what do you want us to do to about it?” Carina said quite rudely.
“Calm it man, what’s with the rudeness? Anyway,” he turned to look at Reece “I’ve tried to talk to her, but she’s a bit feisty” I honestly felt quite out of place and I wanted to leave.
“So… what am I meant to do about it?” Reece asked.
“Can you do me a little favour and talk to her for me?”
“Uhh, I dunno man…”
“Why b? Can’t you just talk to her for me?” I was getting kinda pissed off with this conversation and decided to leave them to it.
“I’m going to the toilet guys” I said trying to sound as normal as possible.
I started walking towards the toilet when Carina said “Wait up I need to go too!”
One thing I loved about my friends was that they didn’t make my feelings for Miguel obvious. As we were walking to the toilet I couldn’t help but wonder what he saw in Ayesha. I actually couldn’t believe he liked that bitch, I don’t even understand why any boy would like her she was so stuck up her own ass with her big ego and thought everyone was below her. Yes, she was pretty but honestly her personality spoilt it all.
“Don’t worry babe, he’s obviously too dumb to see how she really is and too blind not to notice you” Carina said, it was like she read my mind.
“Pshh, he ain’t blind, who would notice me? I’m practically invisible compared to her”
“Car man, you need to stop putting yourself down like this, it’s actually getting annoying. You're a beautiful girl, I don’t know why you can't accept that…”
I didn’t answer. But to be honest it was true I did have low self-esteem but I had gone through a lot of things and that’s what made me this way. I opened the door to the toilets and we made our way in.
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Yeah I know this is short but I thought it was dragging on a bit so I decided to leave it as that.Ohh and bare with me because this is my first story and stuff so I know it might not be that good...
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