drivers license ||vinnie hacker

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kalis pov
i've locked myself in the bathroom
why?
because i can't handle my fake face not showing any emotion towards their deaths i've know them my whole life i feel completely broken and weak i don't want vinnie to see me like this i'm a disgrace how dare i make this about me it's about vinnie i hate myself i hate everything
"kali?" vinnie says gentle through the door i try to suck up my tears and make this all go away i want it all to stop
i unlock the door as an invite he opens it "did i do something wrong? is everything okay?" vinnie asked me
you are perfect vinnie you could never do anything wrong and no nothing is okay i'm hurting is what i wanted to say but i just look at him trying to hold back the truth of my pain "what upset you is it me? i shouldn't have tried to go further with you i'm sorry" he said to me looking for forgiveness but he didn't need it because he is so loving and he didn't hurt me in anyway "no it's not that vinnie...it's nothing you did...but i-i just" i began then stopped unable to finish what i want to say
i just feel so empty i need you so bad
i really really wanted to say that believe me but i can't let him see me so hurt it would bring him more pain and i don't want that "what kali? what happened? did someone hurt you" vinnie asked
he is so kind to me he cares so much but my plan went downhill "go away" was all i could say to him
"kali i am sorry for whatever i did" he said but the problem is he didn't do nothing it's me i'm the problem he tried to grab my hand but i reject it and push him away mentally and physically "vinnie get out...go away" i shout at him trying to make him leave he is better off without me "kali?" he says to me i just want to hug him "get out now vinnie" i saw with more power wanting him to leave me i don't deserve him i watch as he walks out the room then hearing the front door slam i fall and crying making my own puddle of tears
vinnies pov
i slam the door to show her that i am angry and don't want to leave i get in my car and race over to sway i walk threw the house without speaking going up to my room and locking it i don't let anyone in
i stayed there for three days
not one single word from kali
no text
no calls
no visits
nothing
in that moment of time i have officially given up on her i don't know how to please her i've hurt her already she doesn't need me,
days go by as they scramble into one,
months go by in the blink of an eye it is crazy but throughout this time kali hasn't said anything no hi
it's killing me i want her so bad and it's completely destroying me i hate this feeling i hate not having her around my it's like she is dead she's disappeared from my world and it's seems to not bother her at all i just want to be this perfect image for her i wish i was enough
couple months later
i've moved on i have began dating this new girl nai she's great but not her i have not see kali but it doesn't matter i love what i see about myself everyone is happy and the way i'm acting is better i am better and nothing could change it
kalis pov
nothing from no one
they gave no have effort but either did i
it hurts to see everyone and everything move ahead of you and you are stuck
ive been writing songs all this time i have been alone ive moved into a new apartment i was tired of all the people and paparazzi at my door asking about vinnie
he's gone he doesn't exists and i know it's my fault but i think he was happy just to leave and go on without me
i plan on dropping an album when i go to the studio today i'm ready
i just can't wait for people to hear me
the real me and i'm scared of what they will say if they hate it
it'll effect me so much because this is my life, it's real and it hurts to be thrown away or made fun of
but it's worth a shot right?