drivers license ||vinnie hacker

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vinnies pov
i wake up on top of kali who was wide awake just staring at the ceiling and then it hit the memory of my families death for second i forgot
it hurts more than anything in the world kali hasn't said anything i don't know how she's feeling but i'm feeling super low i've never felt so much pain ever losing one person sucks but losing 3 is just painful
i get off of kali and head to the restroom locking the door i stare in the mirror to see my puffy red eyes from crying my heart out last night i just want it all to stop i hate this feeling i start to cry even more this is embarrassing i have never cried this much but i can't stop it i try to hold it in so no one can hear me but it brings more pain to my chest making it hard to breath
i then hear knocking "vin?" i heard kalis gentle voice say through the locked bathroom door "can i come in" she adds i just stay in silence and unlock the door for her she looks up at me connecting with my eyes i can tell she feels sorry for me she looks back and forth between my two eyes not doing anything else just looking at me concerned then she grabs both of my hands with hers and pulls me closer and places my arms on her waist then wrapping her arms around my neck pulling me into a tight hug not saying a word i cry placing my head on her shoulder hugging her tighter why is she such an angel to me
she is so loving
she is a fragile person
and here she is catching me
i don't know what to do or what to feel but i just want to be with her forever
she is it for me i can't find myself loving anyone else she doesn't let me go either and we stay here for awhile and i honestly feel better
she pulls back putting her hands on my biceps and looking at me "i love you" she says then kissing my cheek and walking out before i said anything back i stand there for a second and then go to her bedroom
i open the door hoping to see her on the bed but she isn't i go look in her bathroom and she isn't there either and i go to the kitchen and living room and she isn't here i look out the window and her car is still parked down stairs i go look in my old game room she isn't there either so i go outside and see her sitting by the door "hey" i said finally saying something to her "oh hey" she says back she looks like tired is it because of me?
i sit next to her and look at her "did you sleep comfortably last night" i asked her " i didn't sleep much" she tells me " did you sleep at all" i said a little concerned "honestly no" she tells me i get up and reach my hand out to help her up she takes my hand and gets up and i lead her inside "come on you need to sleep" i said to her walking her to the bedroom
i first sit on the bed then pull her on it as well and lay down with her
we are facing each other in silence
i admire every detail on her face placing my hand on her cheek trying to comfort her into sleep i kiss her lips gentle and she kisses me back another thing leads to another and she's on top of me kissing my lips her hands playing with my hair and my hands gripping her hips trying to close the small gap between our bodies the more and more i'm tempted to go further she gentle stops me from anything i decide to stop going further and just enjoy the kissing she then gets off of me crying
"i'm sorry did i do something wrong" i asked her worried "no i-i'm sorry" she says walking to the bathroom i go to the door and lean my back against the door "kali?" i asked i hear her sniffling in the bathroom i then hear her unlock it so i quickly get up "did i do something wrong? is everything okay?" i asked her "what upset you is it me? i shouldn't have tried to go further with you i'm sorry" i told her "no it's not that vinnie...it's nothing you did...but i-i just-" she stops "what kali? what happened? did someone hurt you" i asked her "go away" she said which shocked me and confused me "kali i'm sorry for whatever i did" i tell her reaching for her hand "vinnie get out...go away" she yells at me which breaks my heart into a million pieces i start walking out and then i turn towards her "kali?" i say trying to reason "get out now vinnie" she says i'm so confused and hurt and angry
i leave and go back to the sway house