Backstage (h.s)

51. Slept in

"hey we'll be okay" Harry reassures me and rests his hand on my upper thigh making the butterflies in my stomach appear like always, "I know, I just was-" I start to say but I'm interrupted by my phone ring 

I pull it out of my pocket and I'm met with 42 text messages, and 13 missed calls along with 8 voicemails, I feel my anxiety creep back up when I start to open the messages, some are good from niall and Liam and ember just asking where I was and how they would cover for us they just wanted to know if we were safe 

but when I scroll down I see Matthews number and the texts that go with it, he had no sense of respect when he texted me and he used derogatory terms when speaking about me like stupid bitch, little cunt and much worse, I feel my heart shatter when I read more I knew he didn't like me very much but I made a mistake I accidentally fell asleep 

I exit out of his text messages and I see the next contact name, Patrick even better 

these were worse than Matthews, I felt my stomach drop when I saw the texts, he including what he would do to me if it happened again and it was mentioned that I was a idiot for making him look stupid for falling asleep, I let my phone drop in my lap and I stare out the front window of the moving car 

I feel my vision blur and I stop seeing the beautiful green trees along with the bright yellow orange sun which is now higher up in the sky, I hear the faint voice of harry it feels like he's miles away from me 

I feel something burn my hand and I feel my hand move away from the burning, and I hear Harrys voice grow louder to me and I can make out what he's saying, "love, speak to me please what happened?" he sounds desperate as he talks and I feel my eyes open once again and I feel my head turn towards him 

I see the sweat break out onto his shiny skin, I made him like that maybe there is something wrong with me, do I make people this crazy? 

 "Harry?" I hear the voice come out of my mouth but it doesn't sound like my own, am I having an out of body experience? 

"Esme what happened?" I hear his voice and it sounds like an echo ringing through my ears, I don't seem to find the right words to say to him but I look down at my phone in my lap, his eyes shoot down to my phone as well and I feel his fingers brush past my thigh as he reaches for it 

I don't stop him and he puts my phone up next to the steering wheel and he reads through what I was while driving which probably wasn't the smartest idea I know what he's reaction will be which means we could crash the car any second now 

I don't look at him until I see my phone fly to the ground by my feet, I look over slightly and he's fuming, I feel the car jerk over to the shoulder of the road and we come to a complete stop very quickly 

"harry I-" I start to say but he cuts me off as I hear the ringing of his cell phone, he's calling someone the phone in his hand is about to shatter from him gripping it too tight, I look at the contact he's dialing. Matthew 

"harry don't" I try to grab the phone from him but he snatches it away from my reach, I hear the line pick up and I hear a scoff from the other end 

"well good morning sunshine, slept alright?" the sarcasm falling off his tongue, "slept great actually best sleep I've had in months" he gives the sarcasm right back to him, "how's our girl" I feel my stomach churn as he refers to me 

"my girl is doing just fine thanks for asking, she would probably be a little better if you and your crazy son would stop sending her threatening texts" he says in a serious tone and I hear the laugh of Matthew echo through my body

"what are you going to do to stop me harry, do you need a refresher of what happened last time?" he says and I see Harrys body language go rigid, what's that supposed to mean? 

I look over to harry but he won't look back to me, he keeps his eyes down, "I don't need a refresher just stop talking to her like she's worthless" he says and I can hear Matthew roll his eyes 

"but she is harry and you'll realize soon enough" he says and hangs up the phone 

I see him put the phone down and he takes my hand, I don't look at him instead I look back at the road in front of me 

"you know I don't believe what he says right?" he whispers and I look over to him and I don't answer him 

"what did he mean by asking if you needed a refresher of last time?" I ask him and I see him visibly get nervous 

"I'll tell all of you soon, I just need all of you there" is all he says and I let out a breath 

and with that he put the car in drive and got back onto the road 

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