Pokimane: The hand you needed

Chapter 37

*Your POV*

Y/n- *Sigh* Why am I so nervous?

I thought while staring at the ceiling, lost in my thoughts, I turned my head to see Poki sleeping peacefully and then to see the clock.

*3:00 am*

Y/n- Three years I've waited for this moment

I said as I stood up and left the room heading downstairs, I prepared some coffee and went outside.

Y/n- *Sigh*

I wasn't able to sleep, that was clear, so I was sitting down admiring the moon while drinking coffee and listening to some music in that old small mp3 I had from my adolescence.

We know that nothing good comes from overthinking at 3 in the morning, let's be honest everything is stacked, all the tiredness of the day, the stress of daily life, I mean at that point our head is only playing games with us so it's better to stop doing that and go to sleep... fine who are we trying to fool we all know its bad but we're gonna keep doing it cause that's how we are.

Y/n- What if she says no? What if I just get her to hate me? What if she feel pressure to accept? What if...? What if..? *Sigh furiously *

I felt impotent about not being able to shout to get everything out because of the time and everyone else in the neighborhood sleeping.

Y/n- Fuck it, what's the worst thing that could happen? Right? She leaving me and loose her?

I kept watching the moon sitting on the porch of the house until I fell asleep

*Poki's POV*

Poki- *Yawn* Morning babe

I said with my eyes closed

Poki- Babe?

I turned around and saw Y/n wasn't there

Poki- What...

I said sitting down and looking at the clock

Poki- Its only 7:30 a.m, where could he be?

I stood up and started looking for him, I didn't found him on his streaming room so I went downstairs.

I found the coffee machine used and some ingredients for coffee outside the cabinets, I looked around all the house but didn't found him, I went back to the room and saw his phone in the nightstand.

I started to get worried, Ibdecided to go outside and found him sleeping on the porch

Poki- WTF?

I sat next to him and put a blanket over him, I proceed to cuddle with him and kiss his cheek

Y/n- Why are you up so early?

Poki- Why are you outside?

Y/n- I couldn't sleep

Poki- It doesn't looks like it

Y/n- Yeah I just fell asleep

Poki- How long you've been here for?

Y/n- I left at three *yawn* and fell asleep at 6 I think

Poki- How?

Y/n- I don't know but if I didn't do it I would've lost it

Poki- Why? You've been so tense this couple days

Y/n- It's something that... forget it

Poki- No! Tell me, you know you can trust me

Y/n- I know, but...*sigh* just hug me and never let me go

I hugged him

Poki- You're scaring me