It's been months since Tyler died. The first months was chaos even up til now. I won't say I'm okay but I was better than before.
"Sa syudad tayo, wag dito!" pagdadabog ni Yessenia
"Kaya nga, wala namang mapupuntahan dito." si Shada
They've been fighting where to hang out after our midterms. The grade 12s are graduating next month. Patapos na ang second semester at aalis na din sila sa campus.
"Haze," tawag ni Jasper na nagpatigil saakin sa pagsusulat. "Asan mo gusto?"
Both Yessenia and Shada whined at what he said.
"Sobrang unfair naman nito!"
"Kanina pa kami nagsusuggest, hindi naman pinapakinggan!"
Jasper chuckled before turning his head to me again. "Sasama ka diba?"
"Uhmm.. not sure."
"Ha?! Anong not sure? Eh hindi na tayo matutuloy niyan?" si Shada
"Pwede naman kayong tumuloy na wala ako."
"No, no, no!" Shada disagreed before taking a seat beside me. "You need to come, Hazel. Pasamahin mo sina Nev kung kailangan na may guardian ka."
I eyed Yessenia who immediately looked away at the mention of my cousin's name. She wouldn't come if Nev's with us.
"I already invited your cousins, Haze. Maraming sasama, actually." Jasper scratched his nape.
"Good! The more the merrier! Basta sagot ni Jasper ah!"
"Why would it be on me?" natatawang sabi ni Jasper
"Graduating ka eh!"
"Ikaw din naman."
"Moving up lang kaya yung amin."
"Alright, alright." pagsuko ni Jasper sa pinsan, "Ano, Hazel? Payag ka?"
"I'll see."
Pumunta kami ni Jasper sa cat cafe pagkatapos ng klase. Masyadong maraming nangyari sa lumipas na buwan. Yessenia broke up with Nevielle, Shada separated ways with her friends too after a long time protecting Cali's name and Jasper's a lot more after his parents' divorce.
Cali has contacted me after a month of Tyler's passing. She was busy coping up with her studies but I was relieved to know that she has landed safely.
[You should trust Claude more. Hindi ko nga inaakala na siya yung tutulong saakin eh. He's really good, Hazel. I can't blame you now for still liking him.] sabi niya nang magkausap kami sa tawag.
"Sinasabi mo yan saakin ngayon na hindi na naman kami nagkikibuan pagkatapos ng nangyari paghatid niya saakin." note the sarcasm.
[If everything has reasons, I bet he has too.]
"I don't know anymore, Cali. My last conversation with Tyler is about Claude and I don't want to stay in that situation."
[Bakit? Anong nangyari?]
"He saw me with Claude. I tried confronting him."
I didn't know I'd be talking about this someday with a different hit. It hurts so much more now whenever I remember the person who stayed beside me when I was hurting.
