My love

I'm so fucking scared, it hurts
Thinking that I'll be without
Your tender touch on my arm
And your heart forever warm.

You are mine through every pore
Oxygen deep in my cells
Raising lungs that breathe you in
Capillaries in my skin.

So depended and so lost
On my daily drug of choice
Craving you forever more,
Broken on an endless shore.

Questions swarm
And questions come
I am weak but I am strong
Is dependency not wrong?

I need you in all my madness
You're my pillar and my truth
Only one that stood the thunder
Under which I often shudder.

You're the craziest there is
For loving me just like you do
Through my pain and muddied soul
When all I do is fall and fall.

Why do you catch me?
Why do you stay?
Why do you love me and adore?
Why do you heal my every sore?

I'm so afraid I cannot breathe
One day will come,
With no remorse, glacier cold.
Only emptiness in arms to hold.

I'm often mad, I cannot lie,
At your carelessness at times,
Wishing you would handle things
That arguing sometimes brings

You're not perfect, neither we,
But who is, can't truly say,
No such thing if you ask me
Humanity is all I see.

And I love you, oh how I do,
Chemicals inside my brain -
Research shows in the reports
That dissecting love, supports.

Perhaps so, perhaps you are
Just a drug inside my veins,
Filling me with all your being
From my chains forever freeing.

But chemicals can't explain
How you still hold me in truth
How your soul still nurtures mine
Faulty heartbeats that align.

You are there for all my falls
Picking me up piece by piece
Shards that pain you and cut deep
Even so, me still you seek.

Bloody hands still nurturing
Pulling me at your beating chest
Asking my heart to take it slow
Refusing to let me go.

In your eyes somehow I live
Ever wanted, despite me
Being broken, oh so much
But you don't see me as such.

I'm so funking scared, it hurts
Thinking that one day I'll wake
Silence deafening inside
Your voice lost deep in my mind

It pains me in every second
Poison pouring in my blood
Darkening but yet aware
Stoping me from breathing air.

You're my love, my heart and only
You're my anchor in deep seas
Fighting madness on its way
Keeping unhappiness at bay.

Love blinds us so we don't see
How times passes closing in
But I know it deep in night
Tears running on your heart.

There is no greater fright
But the one known to be true
One will go and one will stay
Spinning wheels, ticking away.

Nature moves and so do we
Aging, passing, birthing free
But when your time will come to be
Please oh heavens, take also me.

Closing eyes in just one breath
Hearts complete with endless warmth
Peaceful souls merging in one
Simul in aeternum - never undone.