Backstage (h.s)

34. Pour another one

I pick up our clothes from the bathroom throwing them into the hamper and I vacuum the floor in the bathroom picking up all the little particles that broke from when the door fell, I finish cleaning up about ten minutes later and Harry looks at me he's more awake now, I feel his arm snake around the sides of my waist and he presses his lips to mine, I take in the musk scent of him and I kiss him deeper, I always want more with him

"you're the light" he mumbles as he separates our lips, I don't know what he means but I do know he mean't it, everything he says he means

I kiss him once more and I hear a knock, I gasp and I turn from Harry and I look through the doorway of the bathroom into our room, I see ember leaning against the door smirking at us, "don't worry harry I already knew, your precious Esme is a horrible liar" she says and I look down, Harry looks at me and he steps away from me making my heart hurt slightly

he looks at the both of us and walks away slamming the door to the bedroom shut and I feel myself flinch slightly, ember looks at me with confused eyes and I look away, I walk to the bed and she sits down next to me, "what was that?" she says referring to Harry and I let out a breath

"he doesn't trust anyone with whatever is going on between us" I let out to my best friend and I see her look angry, "why doesn't he trust anyone" she asks and I scoff and shrug, "I wish I could find that out myself" I say and she stands up pacing the room. "it doesn't make sense to me, he obviously cares about you when no ones around, why does he act like that when people are around?" she asks and I hear her tone snap, "I don't know em" I let out and she walks to the door, "well I'll find out then" she opens the door and slams it behind her quickly

I jump off the bed running after her and I see her bolt down the stairs and I follow her, I hear talking from downstairs and I hear Nialls voice. I get to the bottom and I see Ember walking up to harry he looks down at her confused, "what makes you think-" she starts pushing her finger into his chest but I cover her mouth with my hand before she causes a scene, I turn her around to me and she stares down at me, "esme no this isn't fair why do you always let people walk all over you" she snaps and I look down, ouch

I look back up to her and she notices her tone to me and the words she let slip, "come on let's go back upstairs" I whisper and Niall and harry and Louis are silent, I leave my hand on her back walking her to the stairs and she walks up them and I turn around slightly and harry's eyes meet mine, but I can't read his expression and I don't know if I want to

I see Embers ahead of me now and I follow her up, I walk into the bedroom and I close the door lightly behind me, "es I'm sorry I didn't mean what I said" she lets out and I walk to her, "your right, I do let people walk all over me, I don't mean to but it happens a lot" I shrug and she shakes her head. "thats why I'm here, so they don't" she says and I nod, "loving is the antidote remember" ember says my words and I nod

"come on I'm hungry" she says standing up and I take her hand, she takes me downstairs and I don't see harry anymore, Niall and Louis are sitting on the couch and I see the door open to the front, Liam and Zayn walk in they look....well they look tired both of their hairs a mess and I think I see hickeys on Zayn's neck, I hear Niall whisper and Liam rubs his head flipping him off, "where have you too been?" Niall smirks and they plop down on the couch, Ember opens up the fridge and she pulls out lunchmeat and I grab the bread thats on the counter, we turn towards the counter looking out to the couch so we can see the boys, "let's just say we met these awesome twins" Zayn looks away and Niall groans, "why am I the unlucky one" he throws his head back and everyone laughs

I open up the two sandwich breads and ember puts ham and turkey into them, I put in the mozzarella cheese and she squirts the lines of mustard, I add lettuce and I close the sandwich up passing one to em and I take a bite, I see Niall avoid my eye contact and I look over to ember, she takes my hand and brings me to the couch making me sit down right next to Niall, "wheres harry?" ember asks and Niall looks down, "the grocery store" he says and I laugh, "we have groceries Niall thought you were supposed to be a good liar" I spit out and he stares at me