𝐃𝐞𝐞𝐩 𝐃𝐞𝐬𝐢𝐫𝐞 [ 𝐍.𝐑. 𝐱 𝐟𝐞𝐦 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫 ]

Chapter 2: Stark's Party

A/n: Hey guys I am back with the 2 nd chapter woooh. And can we please talk about Natasha with straight hair, such an iconic look 🤌

---Y/n Pov---

While I was laying on my bed I thought about the memories I had with Stefan together.
I promised myself not be weak again, here I am laying on my bed in the Stark Tower for Avengers.
So I stood up from my bed and opened the window to let fresh air in.

I breathed the slightly warm air in and it felt so good.
The sky had a warm orange and pink shade but you could still see how the sun was beaming through the clouds.
Whenever I was sad or feeling down, I always tried to look up at the sky.
It felt like I was normal and not a killing machine I used to be for Hydra.
It always felt like I was alone not in a bad way more like tasting the freedom and not having anyone around you that could steal this moment from you.
The feeling by just only watching the sky made me forget that person who I am and it always calmed my mind and nerves no matter in what stage I was.

I looked up to the sky again.

"Stefan..wherever you are, I hope you are doing good my angel. I am so sorry for what I have done to you.
Since the day I can't forgive myself and everyday I wake up only to be reminded that you are not here with me anymore.." I mumbled to myself and some tears were flowing down.

My lips began to tremble.
After his death I just felt nothing but misery, anger, hatred and madness in my heart and chaos in my mind.
For the most time the hatred began to grow up everyday for myself.

I was thrown back to reality when I heard a soft knock on the door.

I let the window open and wiped my wet cheeks with my sleeves.

I took some breaths in and out and went to the door to open it.
Just to see a small smile on Buckys face.

"Hey can I come in?", he asked softly.

"Yeah sure", I gestured to him to come in.

"Take a seat on my bed".

Bucky sat on my bed
and sat across from him and looking at him.

He took a breath before talking.
"How are you feeling?"

"I am fine", tried to convince him.

Bucky looked at me with a soft gaze.

"I mean how are you really feeling y/n?"

I sighed
"I- I don't know it's just..It's so goddamn hard to have control it drives me insane, I just hate..", but was cutt off when my voice began to tremble and my lungs burned slowly in a painful way.

Bucky stood up and kneeled in front of me.
"Come here", and embraced me in a tight hug.
My head was laying on his chest and I could hear his heart beating calmly which comforted me a bit. I was thankful to him.

He stroked my back comfortably.
"No matter what will happen, you will always stay with us.
I promise you everything will get better, hold on to that okey", whispering to me.

"I just don't anyone to look at me like I am a monster", my voice began to crack.

Bucky cupped my face and lifted it up so I could look directly in his eyes.

"That's not true, none of us think that way of you. You were just a little girl that happened to have a tough past and had no choices. None of what happened was your fault please don't think like that. Whatever comes, everything will change to a better way, you are safe here", said Bucky while stroking my face.