Diary of a Broken Boy •Lashton•

Entry Thirty-Two - 2/22/15

I went over to Ashton's house today and we watched movies all day.

I was nervous to go to school tomorrow again. I had an uneasy feeling and I was scared.

This whole experience has put me trough a lot of stress and my mom is staring to get a little suspicious as to why I refuse to hug her or let her kiss me or anything and... It fucking hurts to know I can't let her do that with out me being sent into a dark place. I feel awful about ignoring her.

I hope Ashton is okay though. I can't thank him enough for the things he does for me. He makes me feel undoubtedly safe no matter what occasion and always manages to compliment me in some way. I try to tell him he is perfect but he just doesn't hear it.

He doesn't see what I see. That he is the most beautiful boy on Earth and never deserved the words I threw at him. I still hate myself to this day. He promised to try and stop cutting again and I make sure I check his wrists.

I love him so much I can't even describe.

This was pretty long and ranty but that's what this book is for I guess. Wish me luck tommrow... Hopefully Calum won't be there.

-2/22/15