Trials and Consequences of Love

Chapter 19

"I'm sorry that you have to be alone."

"I'm sorry that you had to go."

"I'm sorry that you had to die."

"I'm sorry that I get to be alive."

"I'm sorry that I can't be there to comfort you with my love; I know you must be terrified."

"But everything will be alright in a bit,"

"Daddy is coming to be with you."

"I hope you forgive me for choosing him when I should have chosen you."

"I hope you can forgive him too,"

"I know that it won't be easy because he took you away from me but please do,"

"Or at least try to."

"He's on his way to you and he told me to tell you that he loves you and he can't wait to meet you."

"He's coming to take care of you,"

"He's coming to do for you, all the things I can't do."

"Please let him hold you, "

"Please let him be there for you,"

"Please let him watch you do the things that I can't watch you do. "

"Please allow him to read you stories and take you on adventures or whatever you like to do."

"Forgive him for me and for you. "

"So that you can both find each other and love each other."

"So that you can be there with each other until the day I die."

"Until the day I can get to you."

"I love everything about you though I didn't get the chance to meet you."

"I will never forget you, my first true love, "

"Nina Ailana,"

"My hope of love,"

"My bearer of light."

"My first daughter,"

"I hope you never forget me."

"I love you, my baby girl, always and forever."

"No matter where life takes me, you will always be my first love."

"I have good news for you,"

"You're going to be a big sister,"

"You have two little siblings on the way;"

"They're in my belly right now,"

"I wish could you feel them,"

"I think they would have loved you and you them;"

"I have a favour to ask and I hope you don't get mad."

"If they are girls, I would like to give them your names,"

"I hope I have your blessing."

"I want to do this for you,"

"Because it's the only thing I can do,"

"Give your sisters the names that were meant for you,"

"In loving memory of you."

"So that you will live on in our memories,"

"So that your story never dies"

"Watch over us forever Nina,"

"Protect your little siblings when they come."

"Continue to stay gentle and gracious my baby girl."

"Know that you live on every day in my heart,"

"Forever embedded in my memories."

"Be kind to your father when he finds you,"

"And never forget to be kind to yourself."

"Until next time,"

"From mommy to you, with love"

"Rest in peace, my sweet child,"

"Rest in peace my little dove."

A tear slips from my eyes as I open the urn and shake out its contents; the heavy wind picks up the dust particles, scattering them all over the beach. I kiss the rose and put it on the stone under my feet.

As the ashes blow all over the place I am filled with a sense of peace; I will never forget her but at least tonight I will be able to get some sleep.

"That was beautiful my love, I am so proud of you" Valentina-Rosa walks up beside me.

"As am I, it must have taken a lot out of you to do that and you did it so gracefully," Teresa says standing on my other side.

"Thank you, guys, for being here" I smile at them as they gather around me.

"Together always and forever or have you already forgotten?" Aurora asks returning my smile.

"Juntos, siempre y para siempre" I nod my head at her.

"Juntos, siempre y para siempre" they all say as we stand there looking out the water.

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a/n: Final Lullaby is such a beautiful song and this was such a beautiful goodbye. Emily really deserves the world.

Thank you for reading.

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