polyester

six | calm like you

I had no idea what I was getting myself into. Closing my dorm door and walking through the dark hallway I couldn't help but make excuses to postpone. I badly wanted to run back to my dorm; But it had to be done.

I wasn't even aware where the boys dormitory was, but that was the least of my worries.

What was eating me alive was the fact I was going to face Louis and that was enough to stop my beating heart.

I eventually found my way in after circling the school for what felt like years. There wasn't a lot of supervision around the dormitory's so sneaking out wasn't as difficult as I expected. But now came the hard part. I completely forgot that I in fact had no idea where he stayed.

Frustration enhanced me as I stood in that dark hallway wondering what my next move was going to be. If I leave, I fail. And if I stayed, I'd get nowhere.

But then I heard the fumbling of keys and the twist of a knob and I immediately went to panic. I cannot afford to be seen here. But I had nowhere to hide or go. Panic has glued me to the ground and before I could make a run for it, he appeared.

Coincidence how the person I avoided the most made their own way to me.

Confusion was written all over his face, and I couldn't blame him, I for one would be confused if I saw a random boy in the girls dormitory at midnight.

And it was like my mouth was glued shut as I couldn't form a single word. The same for my legs that made no effort to move, It was like I completely lost control of my body.

But then I realized that running away would be more embarrassing anyway, so I just stood there waiting for him to question my presence. Though none of us spoke a word, we just started at each other.

I had to say something.

"Erm, I just wanted to ask if you had my chemistry book." I blurted out quickly. My voice came out squeaky which had to be followed by the clear of my throat and that didn't fail to color my face red. Embarrassing myself was what I was best at.

He seemed even more confused than he initially was and I completely regretted the choice of coming here from the first place, all I wanted to do was disappear.

"Your chemistry book?" He replied. His deep voice that never failed to send shivers down my spine did it again. His eyes brows: furrowed and I couldn't help but notice how his hair was more messy than usual. But it still managed to compliment him; It infuriated me.

"Yeah, I've spent hours trying to find it, and I figured it would be with you." I replied.

I tried to appear confident but it was difficult as he was practically twice my size. I especially disliked tall people, and it was only because I craved a few inches. To appear confident in a short body was near impossible.

He let go of the door knob and folded his arms, now he was completely facing me and I unintentionally began to squirm—scratching the whole 'appearing confident' thought.

"I can go check for you." He no longer seemed confused, but more intrigued? He clearly had a slight smirk and that was the first time I've seen a readable expression on his stone cold face.

He then continued his sentence with "do you want to come in?"

Is he kidding me right now? I genuinely thought he would end the sentence with a laugh but he didn't. He just waited for an answer.